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Sunday, March 25, 2012

Week 38 & My 100th Post!

Another week down! Seriously, these weeks are going by way too fast. Soon I will be hitting my 10th months! The start of my 10th month lands on my birthday weekend.

Don't worry the dressing is only 30 calories.
By now I wish I had already lost another 20 pounds. Oh man that is not the case. This last night I didn't gain any thing or lose anything. I feel like I have hit a wall. I think I have become bored of this thing called healthy eating (LOL). It so easy to eat unhealthy...so so easy. Honestly, I am not bored I have become very lazy. I have been tracking my meals and the amount of WW points are very bad. I am not earning enough activity points to brake even. It's so easy to say yes and hang out with my lunch buddy, PJ, and eat a 13 WW point sandwich at Subway. When I can bring a 9 WW point or less lunch from home.

Now I have two weeks before my birthday and my 10 month mark to lost at least 4 pounds! Please someone shake the lazy out of me!

You know there's always an upside to each week. This week's upside is the beautiful weather. I was able to Welcome Spring with a ride with ABM.  Friday night I replaced some Lenny parts which made Saturday's ride even sweeter! I replaced the seat and pedals. The original seat has become very squeaky and bugged the heck out of me. I also added a mirror. Now my Huffy has Schwinn parts. HA! I can't wait to take Lenny out again next weekend.

I am please that I have reached my 100th post on this blog. I started this blog as a private blog in January 2011 and look at it now. It is not as popular as my mom blog but I have loyal following. Thank you all for reading about my journey. I can't wait to write the next 100 posts!

Numbers & Goals Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs BMI 40.3 kg/m^2
This week's weight is: 241.0 lbs BMI 36.6 kg/m^2
Change since last week: 0 lbs
Change from start: -27.5 lbs 10.24% lost

Measurements:
Arms: 14.5 in last week: 0.0in from start: -2.0 in
Hips: 46 in last week: 0.0in from start: -3.5 in
Bust: 46in last week: 0.0in from start: -2.0 in
Waist: 40 in last week: 0.0in from start: -4.0in
Thigh: 25 in last week: 0.0in from start: -4.5in

This week's goals:
1- Track each and every piece of food that enters my mouth
2- Bike 40 miles this week
3- Earn activity points each day
4- Water and lots of it!
5- Focus more on myself and my goal

Week 38 & My 100th Post!

Another week down! Seriously, these weeks are going by way too fast. Soon I will be hitting my 10th months! The start of my 10th month lands on my birthday weekend.

Don't worry the dressing is only 30 calories.
By now I wish I had already lost another 20 pounds. Oh man that is not the case. This last night I didn't gain any thing or lose anything. I feel like I have hit a wall. I think I have become bored of this thing called healthy eating (LOL). It so easy to eat unhealthy...so so easy. Honestly, I am not bored I have become very lazy. I have been tracking my meals and the amount of WW points are very bad. I am not earning enough activity points to brake even. It's so easy to say yes and hang out with my lunch buddy, PJ, and eat a 13 WW point sandwich at Subway. When I can bring a 9 WW point or less lunch from home.

Now I have two weeks before my birthday and my 10 month mark to lost at least 4 pounds! Please someone shake the lazy out of me!

You know there's always an upside to each week. This week's upside is the beautiful weather. I was able to Welcome Spring with a ride with ABM.  Friday night I replaced some Lenny parts which made Saturday's ride even sweeter! I replaced the seat and pedals. The original seat has become very squeaky and bugged the heck out of me. I also added a mirror. Now my Huffy has Schwinn parts. HA! I can't wait to take Lenny out again next weekend.

I am please that I have reached my 100th post on this blog. I started this blog as a private blog in January 2011 and look at it now. It is not as popular as my mom blog but I have loyal following. Thank you all for reading about my journey. I can't wait to write the next 100 posts!

Numbers & Goals Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs BMI 40.3 kg/m^2
This week's weight is: 241.0 lbs BMI 36.6 kg/m^2
Change since last week: 0 lbs
Change from start: -27.5 lbs 10.24% lost

Measurements:
Arms: 14.5 in last week: 0.0in from start: -2.0 in
Hips: 46 in last week: 0.0in from start: -3.5 in
Bust: 46in last week: 0.0in from start: -2.0 in
Waist: 40 in last week: 0.0in from start: -4.0in
Thigh: 25 in last week: 0.0in from start: -4.5in

This week's goals:
1- Track each and every piece of food that enters my mouth
2- Bike 40 miles this week
3- Earn activity points each day
4- Water and lots of it!
5- Focus more on myself and my goal

Bronx Dance Theatre Presents: On The Radio. Part 1: Ticket Sales

The one thing I have learn over the last three dance seasons is you have to wake up pretty early in the morning to compete with other dance moms. Some of these ladies are very cut throat. Something I don't understand because in the end we are all dealing with children. Right?

The last two seasons when tickets go on sale for the "Big Show" I would wake up early on the day of the sale and join the extremely long line. On this I have found out that hardcore moms lined up chairs the day/night before just to get the discounted tickets. The first 50 or 25 (I can't remember) would get a few dollars off the ticket price. This was a great incentive but it caused A LOT of drama....so I heard. Getting the discounted price would have been nice in the past but it really wasn't worth the fight. Since the studio no longer offer the discount I figured that I would have a shot at getting tickets closer to the stage.

On Saturday, the day before the tickets were on sale, I noticed random Dance Mom standing around for "no reason" at all at the entrance of the studio when I dropped off Big Al to class at 11am. When I picked him up at Noon I notice more people just "standing" around. Man...these people are NOT playing around. There is no discount to fight over...they are out for "blood." Heck! I know that I am hardcore when it comes to a lot of things but come on this is a children's recital. Then my competitive side kicked in and I called my brother, Jay, to back me up. Within the hour he was outside the studio....just "standing" around.

When I made my way back to the studio for Big Bea s 3pm class there was a mass of people "standing" around. I really could not believe it. I dropped Big Bea off and heading back home to prep dinner for the family and ran back out with my chair and my sign. My sign had my name and my web address. *shameless promotion*

Now the dance studio put out a mass email and flyer to the families stating that no chairs or lines should be created for tickets prior to 5pm Saturday evening in order to respect the local business and the community. Apparently, these ladies disregarded the email and flyers. They wanted their tickets by any means necessary! I guess because I sent my brother to stand outside make me just as bad as they are.
When I went to get my chair the great staff of BDT had to break up the "standing" party forming outside. Jay sent me a few text saying that he was scared of Dance Moms. When I came back people were spread out. Everyone was saying that we are not making a line we are waiting for our children, knowing damn well that Creative Moment ends at 11pm and here it is 3:30pm. Jay was trying to make friends with those around. I guess if you are friends with them they won't attack...lol

While waiting around I met new people, like Jackie. She is a Dance Aunt. She was helping her sister out by standing and sitting in the cold hours on end to get great seats for her niece's first show. She was the only person that I caught their name. I only remember the ladies and gents that I met by what number they were on line. #9 informed me of the early morning drama between her husband #3 and #1! I wish I could say I was shocked by what she told me but I was not.

Just around 4:45pm the lead of the "pack" started to release the chairs. One by one the "pack" pulled their tape out and grab their label and taped their name to the chair. Once 4:50pm hit the line began to form. There were A LOT of dirty look being thrown around by the members of the "pack" that ends up in the mid-20's and those who were in the 30's. WHY? I don't know. By the time 5pm those in the 30's were very upset and refused to move their chairs to make space for these in the teens because they broke the rules and were here before 4pm. Many not so nice words were thrown around and those in the teens were trapped on top of each other.....Yes my chair was in the teens. We made due with what little space given to us. I stood around just after 5:30pm. I wished Jackie good luck with her overnight adventure, told her that I was going to bring coffee in the morning and went home.

Around 9pm I decided to visit the chairs and Jackie to make sure everything was OK. I rode my bike to the studio because it was the quickest way to get there and back. The ladies that were still around didn't recognized me when I pulled out with Lenny. They all kind of laughed when they realized it was me. One of the ladies #20, #21 and #22 noticed that I had a bell and giggled when I rang both bells. We all got to talking about the plan of action for tonight and tomorrow. Jackie (who by the way was #11) was frozen! I felt so bad that she was out there in the cold. She is a trooper that for sure.

As we all kept talking, It came up that Little Al and #21's son are Autistic. Her son went to the same CPSE center that Lisa's, from AutismWonderland, son went it. She is the leader of Team DONOmite. Team DONOmite held a karaoke night at Pompeii Lounge to raise money for the 2011 Walk for Autism Speaks. Small world huh? I was invited to this year event on May 26th....I think...lol

I said my good byes and headed home to my warm bed. I returned in the morning with Jackie's coffee and layers of clothing for myself. Dunkin' Donuts is a Dance Mom's good friend on a ticket sale day. I caught of all the over night drama with #9 and Jackie. Fordham students moving chairs and a weird dude trying to steal chairs. Funny stuff.

By 8am it was safe to stay that no more fights or disagreement were going to happen with those at the front of the line. It was actually nice to met the other moms and dads. I don't get a chance to stick around the studio and socialize. I got a chance to get to know the people I pass in the studio hallway every Saturday.

At 9:45am the lovely staff of BDT started handing out the numbers and I was officially #10! I was very excited to have such a low number. It was dramatic improvement from being in the 60's and 70's prior years. Being #10 meant I didn't have a chance at getting front row center ticket for either show. However it did give me the chance of getting front row orchestra right! Hey front row is the front row no matter where it is. I successful got 14 front row orchestra right tickets. The 14 are for two shows. It turns out that Becky and Big Al's shows are on two different days. Big Al is on June 3 and Becky is June 10. I get to see both shows this year!
You'd think I would be holding tickets to Lady Gaga!

One lesson I learned this weekend.....Dance Moms are vicious!

Samurai Rangers victory is ours.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Welcome Spring!

What's the best way to welcome spring? By bike riding of course! After attending my son's IEP meeting I took Lenny out for a quick ride on the Bronx River Greenway. The best part...my old man came with me. He rode on his new Mongoose mountain bike...YAY! He learned first hand why I fell in love with my bike. I showed him where I go when I go for a ride. It was great not being alone on this ride. It was awesome to finally not to be stressed out. The weather helped with all the joy. I wanted to keep this going! DANG IT!

The funniest thing happened at the start of our ride. An old man came out of nowhere while we were at a red light. He started to say how great my bike looked and how I dressed up to match my bike. It was very funny. Lenny and I do get a lot of attention.

First Panda Shot of the Season

Hubby enjoying himself :-O
 Look there is grass growning in the background. I love the spring. I don't have to ride pass frozen ground anymore.
POSE!
Biking in my Converse is sooo comfortable!

Welcome Spring!

What's the best way to welcome spring? By bike riding of course! After attending my son's IEP meeting I took Lenny out for a quick ride on the Bronx River Greenway. The best part...my old man came with me. He rode on his new Mongoose mountain bike...YAY! He learned first hand why I fell in love with my bike. I showed him where I go when I go for a ride. It was great not being alone on this ride. It was awesome to finally not to be stressed out. The weather helped with all the joy. I wanted to keep this going! DANG IT!

The funniest thing happened at the start of our ride. An old man came out of nowhere while we were at a red light. He started to say how great my bike looked and how I dressed up to match my bike. It was very funny. Lenny and I do get a lot of attention.

First Panda Shot of the Season

Hubby enjoying himself :-O
 Look there is grass growning in the background. I love the spring. I don't have to ride pass frozen ground anymore.
POSE!
Biking in my Converse is sooo comfortable!

Big Al's 2012 IEP Meeting

Happy first day of spring! It was a perfect day to have a meeting. Normally the days and weeks leading up to an IEP meeting I am a nervous wreak. I have been unusually calm since I got my letter that Big Al's IEP meeting with scheduled. I guess it's because I have the team of service providers on my side. It also helped that Parent Teacher Conference was last week and I was able to have a longer conversation with the classroom teacher and speech therapist. It felt like a pre-IEP meeting meeting. The teacher couldn't stress the important changes in curriculum and what is required of all children special needs or not. The speech therapist see clearly that Big Al is on the spectrum and also see why the Department of Education does not recognize him being on the spectrum. As much paperwork that I have pushed over the last four school years the Department of Education will only recognize him as Speech and Language Impaired. It's upsetting but the providers at his school completely understand and have looked pass the label of Speech and Language Impaired and focus on the issues associated with Autism.

Today's meeting started off on the wrong foot. The school Internet was completely down. This is not good, especially since SEISS a web based program. So that meant the attendance sheet was NOT generated and neither was the final copy of the IEP. The counselor and the IEP teacher tried to use the counselor's MiFi to print the necessary pages. They tried and tried with no success. Since I was in a great mood I let it pass but not without giving them a hard time and make them sweat. Tee-he

I noticed that the tech teacher was going insane trying to figure out what was going on in the brain of the school's Internet. I knew that I was not going to leave with an IEP any time soon. This is the biggest flaw with SEISS. You can't work on the document offline. No Internet = BIG problems.

Each service provider spoke their word. Everyone had positive things to say about Big Al's progress. They spoke about the areas that need work. I agreed. I spoke my part about him. I filled them in on the over all progress he has made since he was 2. I explained to them that I will support ALL the work that is being done with him at school, at home. I asked each provider to suggest an activity or program to support him during the summer month since this well be the first time he will not have summer school. One by one they all said that what we have planned is great. Swimming, tap and time with family. The speech therapist is going to make copies of a program that promotes cognitive development to use with him.

Since I will be unable to return to the school for another IEP meeting I agreed to have the IEP sent home tomorrow and I can tear it apart and send back the changes. The IEP teacher, counselor and OT, whom I never met before, were very very impressed by my drive to give my Big Al the world within his ability. I can't wait to sit with the document tear it to pieces in the comfort of my own home. The Internet being down worked in my favor....sorry guys you should have been prepared for every situation.

When the IEP teacher asked me if I had any questions.....HA! Of course I had questions!
Where the service frequencies changed? Yes PT changed.
Where's the PT? He is only at the school on Thursdays and Fridays.
Will you forward the PT my number so that I could talk to him? Sure.
Where are the SEISS progress reports? They were never printer? (Her eyebrows raised and mouth dropped)
No. Where are the progress reports? I'll print them for you when the Internet.
Do you need the PT/OT prescription today or when the IEP is printed? You don't have them now right?
Yes I do have them now....You want them. Yes (mouth dropped again.)
Thank you ...I have no more questions

Surprisingly the PT called me an hour later. He explained his part and Big Al has improved. He suggested that he joins a sport or marital arts. He was shocked that he was in dance class and suggest that he should take hip hop to help with strength. Daddy was happy to get the martial arts endorsement.

I can't wait to get the IEP tomorrow.....*evil laughter*

Monday, March 19, 2012

Week 37

Week 36 just dragged!! Then I woke up on Sunday like where did the week go. I guess it went quicker then I thought. I tried very hard to stay on track with the Weight Watcher Pointplus plan but I totally messed up for another week in a row. However, I am happy to say that I track every single item I ate. So I successfully tracked my horrible eat habits. I can use all the excuses in the book for my eating habits but I won't. I own what I am doing. DANG IT! Most of the damage is done when I get home from a long stressful day at work. Last week was the worst week at work.....BOOK FAIR WEEK. It's when we turn the library into a book store. Talk about stressful! 500 little kids in five days is no joke. Even with the bad eating habits I started using my Weight Watchers electronic food scale. It has opened my eyes to how much meat I have been eating. I cut my meat intake at dinner time in half. GO ME! I have tried Weight Watchers New Creamy Coconut Smoothie this week. It is actually not bad. I tried it with low fat milk, water and almond milk. I favorite was the almond milk, it was the smoothie-est. I am going to buy another pack when I am done with this one. I am trying to replace my morning coffee with the smoothie. It has worked pretty well but I need to get all this caffeine out of my body....that's going to be hard to do.
The greatest thing happened this weekend! I got to ride Lenny. My beautiful bike has been sitting in the corner of my living room for almost two months. Lenny has been waiting and staring at me, telling me to go for a ride. I didn't think twice when I woke up on Saturday to go for a ride. It's have been very difficult to ride in my spare time because my husband, who watches the kids with I am out, has either has been at work or away with the USMC. Now that he schedule has rotated in my favor I will be riding every weekend until I can't anymore.

I totally forgot how awesome my bike is. I rode up and down the Pelham Parkway Greenway and Bronx River Greenway in the early morning. My body needed to adjust to being on the bike again. I was also reminded how I lost 15lbs from biking alone.

I love my new Bell quick release handlebar basket and two Bell bike bells. I love how loud the bells are when I ring them at the same time. YEAH! The basket makes life easier. I don't have to adjust a book bag or fanny pack. My water is easier to reach for and I can go shopping after a ride. The quick release makes it easier to pack my goodies in the store. However, it does make my bike front heavy. This makes it harder to lift up steps. I have to get used to that.

A few weeks ago I am properly programmed my cyclocomputer. Now it reads miles not kilometers. I don't need to convert the numbers when I get home. This weekend I biked 20.3 miles and burned 1,000 calories. My legs enjoyed the pain. It took me about one hour to ride 10 miles. I have to work on my speed for the Five Boro Tour that is 47 days away. I don't want the tour to take all day. I plan on biking a combined 40 miles this week. I need to start getting my body used to biking that distance.

Biking is a great de-stresser. Everything melts away with the wind. I especially love one hill on the Bronx River Greenway. If there is no one on the Greenway hill I am able to ride down the hill brake free and hit 30mph. It's an awesome feeling!

Numbers & Goals Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs BMI 40.3 kg/m^2
This week's weight is: 241.0 lbs BMI 36.6 kg/m^2
Change since last week: 0 lbs
Change from start: -27.5 lbs 10.24% lost

Measurements:
Arms: 14.5 in last week: 0.0in from start: -2.0 in
Hips: 46 in last week: +0.5in from start: -3.5 in
Bust: 46in last week: 0.0in from start: -2.0 in
Waist: 40 in last week: +2.0in from start: -4.0in
Thigh: 25 in last week: -1.0in from start: -4.5in

This week's goals:
1- Track each and every piece of food that enters my mouth
2- Bike 40 miles this week
3- Earn activity points each day
4- Water and lots of it!
5- Focus more on myself and my goal

Week 37

Week 36 just dragged!! Then I woke up on Sunday like where did the week go. I guess it went quicker then I thought. I tried very hard to stay on track with the Weight Watcher Pointplus plan but I totally messed up for another week in a row. However, I am happy to say that I track every single item I ate. So I successfully tracked my horrible eat habits. I can use all the excuses in the book for my eating habits but I won't. I own what I am doing. DANG IT! Most of the damage is done when I get home from a long stressful day at work. Last week was the worst week at work.....BOOK FAIR WEEK. It's when we turn the library into a book store. Talk about stressful! 500 little kids in five days is no joke. Even with the bad eating habits I started using my Weight Watchers electronic food scale. It has opened my eyes to how much meat I have been eating. I cut my meat intake at dinner time in half. GO ME! I have tried Weight Watchers New Creamy Coconut Smoothie this week. It is actually not bad. I tried it with low fat milk, water and almond milk. I favorite was the almond milk, it was the smoothie-est. I am going to buy another pack when I am done with this one. I am trying to replace my morning coffee with the smoothie. It has worked pretty well but I need to get all this caffeine out of my body....that's going to be hard to do.
The greatest thing happened this weekend! I got to ride Lenny. My beautiful bike has been sitting in the corner of my living room for almost two months. Lenny has been waiting and staring at me, telling me to go for a ride. I didn't think twice when I woke up on Saturday to go for a ride. It's have been very difficult to ride in my spare time because my husband, who watches the kids with I am out, has either has been at work or away with the USMC. Now that he schedule has rotated in my favor I will be riding every weekend until I can't anymore.

I totally forgot how awesome my bike is. I rode up and down the Pelham Parkway Greenway and Bronx River Greenway in the early morning. My body needed to adjust to being on the bike again. I was also reminded how I lost 15lbs from biking alone.

I love my new Bell quick release handlebar basket and two Bell bike bells. I love how loud the bells are when I ring them at the same time. YEAH! The basket makes life easier. I don't have to adjust a book bag or fanny pack. My water is easier to reach for and I can go shopping after a ride. The quick release makes it easier to pack my goodies in the store. However, it does make my bike front heavy. This makes it harder to lift up steps. I have to get used to that.

A few weeks ago I am properly programmed my cyclocomputer. Now it reads miles not kilometers. I don't need to convert the numbers when I get home. This weekend I biked 20.3 miles and burned 1,000 calories. My legs enjoyed the pain. It took me about one hour to ride 10 miles. I have to work on my speed for the Five Boro Tour that is 47 days away. I don't want the tour to take all day. I plan on biking a combined 40 miles this week. I need to start getting my body used to biking that distance.

Biking is a great de-stresser. Everything melts away with the wind. I especially love one hill on the Bronx River Greenway. If there is no one on the Greenway hill I am able to ride down the hill brake free and hit 30mph. It's an awesome feeling!

Numbers & Goals Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs BMI 40.3 kg/m^2
This week's weight is: 241.0 lbs BMI 36.6 kg/m^2
Change since last week: 0 lbs
Change from start: -27.5 lbs 10.24% lost

Measurements:
Arms: 14.5 in last week: 0.0in from start: -2.0 in
Hips: 46 in last week: +0.5in from start: -3.5 in
Bust: 46in last week: 0.0in from start: -2.0 in
Waist: 40 in last week: +2.0in from start: -4.0in
Thigh: 25 in last week: -1.0in from start: -4.5in

This week's goals:
1- Track each and every piece of food that enters my mouth
2- Bike 40 miles this week
3- Earn activity points each day
4- Water and lots of it!
5- Focus more on myself and my goal

Monday, March 12, 2012

Working Out With Children Around

Last week I posed a question on my Facebook fan page. The question asked what kinds of topics to cover should I cover on this blog. Adventures of Modern Mom suggested a topic related to working out with kids.

I normally work out alone. A trip to the gym, a trip on my bike or a spin on my stationary are all done without the kiddies. I prefer it this way. Since I am a worry wart, I worry the one of the kids will get hurt if I doing a high impact workout. I like my work outs to be relaxing not full of worry. So when I have no choice but to work out with the kids I always use the Wii Fit with them.

Running is our favorite. Big Al likes finding and picking out the Wii Miis that pass us by. He loves searching for his sisters. The next favorite is Yoga. The kids love watching mommy on the floor making a fool of herself.

I can't wait until I have the time to take the kids out in this awesome weather that we are helping. Running around the playground is always a great workout.


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Working Out With Children Around

Last week I posed a question on my Facebook fan page. The question asked what kinds of topics to cover should I cover on this blog. Adventures of Modern Mom suggested a topic related to working out with kids.

I normally work out alone. A trip to the gym, a trip on my bike or a spin on my stationary are all done without the kiddies. I prefer it this way. Since I am a worry wart, I worry the one of the kids will get hurt if I doing a high impact workout. I like my work outs to be relaxing not full of worry. So when I have no choice but to work out with the kids I always use the Wii Fit with them.

Running is our favorite. Big Al likes finding and picking out the Wii Miis that pass us by. He loves searching for his sisters. The next favorite is Yoga. The kids love watching mommy on the floor making a fool of herself.

I can't wait until I have the time to take the kids out in this awesome weather that we are helping. Running around the playground is always a great workout.


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Week 36

I've had an extremely rough week last week that resulted in a 3.4 pound gain. This makes me very upset. I know that I can try a lot better then I have been. I am clearly off program for some time now. Gosh I need to slap myself out of it. Blah.

I need motivation!



I hate this bouncing around between 10% lost and my next goal. HELP ME!

Sorry for the short post this week people.

Numbers & Goals Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs BMI 40.3 kg/m^2
This week's weight is: 237.6 lbs BMI 36.6 kg/m^2
Change since last week: +3.4 lbs
Change from start: -27.5lbs

Measurements:
Arms: 14.5 in last week: 0.0in from start: -2.0 in
Hips: 46.5 in last week: +1.0in from start: -3.0in
Bust: 46in last week: 0.0in from start: -2.0ins
Waist: 37 in last week: +1.0in from start: -5.0in
Thigh: 26 in last week: 0.0in from start: -3.5in

This week's goals:
1- Really get back on track
2- Track each and every piece of food that enters my mouth
3- Earn activity points
4- Really work on de-stressing
5- Water and lots of it!
6- Focus more on myself and my goal

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Week 36

I've had an extremely rough week last week that resulted in a 3.4 pound gain. This makes me very upset. I know that I can try a lot better then I have been. I am clearly off program for some time now. Gosh I need to slap myself out of it. Blah.

I need motivation!



I hate this bouncing around between 10% lost and my next goal. HELP ME!

Sorry for the short post this week people.

Numbers & Goals Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs BMI 40.3 kg/m^2
This week's weight is: 237.6 lbs BMI 36.6 kg/m^2
Change since last week: +3.4 lbs
Change from start: -27.5lbs

Measurements:
Arms: 14.5 in last week: 0.0in from start: -2.0 in
Hips: 46.5 in last week: +1.0in from start: -3.0in
Bust: 46in last week: 0.0in from start: -2.0ins
Waist: 37 in last week: +1.0in from start: -5.0in
Thigh: 26 in last week: 0.0in from start: -3.5in

This week's goals:
1- Really get back on track
2- Track each and every piece of food that enters my mouth
3- Earn activity points
4- Really work on de-stressing
5- Water and lots of it!
6- Focus more on myself and my goal

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Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Yeah?

This tired mom has found a silver lining in the clouds and paperwork of the Special Education/Special Needs world. It's so easy to get lost in the routines of special family life. For a few months I felt like I was stuck on automatic.



After after school I always drag myself in the car where Big, Little Al and Dad are waiting for Big Bea and myself. The norm is Big Al asking me where we going and him proclaiming what he wants for dinner. Usually it's Mickey D's. Today started the same until....

Little Al said, "Donald's."

"I want Donald's."

I was shocked to hear this. When Dad turned in the direction of home and not Mc Donald's she started to cry. This is so major!

Not only she said a name and a sentence she had never formed in my presence before, she understood that she was hungry, what kind of food she wanted and we were not going in the direction to get the food she wanted!

This tired mom is happy...I think we are going to get Donald's tomorrow.

GO LITTLE AL!

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Searching For A Healthy Body Image

Back in August of 2011, I wrote a post called Life as a Fat Girl I wrote about how in my brain I always felt like a fat girl even when I wasn't. Now that I have lost a good about of weight, I am still having trouble with what my body looks like in my brain. The image that I see in the mirror and my brain is a super obese person. I see myself as being those people they make TLC (scare the masses) shows. The reasoning part of my brain knows that that's not true. I have seen the fat melt off my back. Then I look at my front and scream at it. "GO AWAY GUT!". I really have to work on this if I am in search of happiness.
WebMd suggests 6 ways to boosted your body image.
1- Stop negative self-talk immediately. Stop pointing out the bad parts. I have go turn "Oh my gut makes me look like I am pregnant again." into "I need to focused on work outs and meals that promotes weight loss in my mid-section." easier said then done...I am going to try.
2-Find and focus on the things you like about your looks. Over the last few month I have been focused on an age/stress spot that has showed up on the very top of my right cheek. It drives me crazy and I HATE wearing make up. So it stares at me when I look in the mirror. Now let's see what I can find.... Hey I think I have an awesome ass-et. There is a great view back there. That's a good thing to focus on.




3-Treat yourself with the same kindness and respect you show your best friend. Self kindness? This is my worst offense. I am very mean to myself. I have to schedule some kindness time. Maybe in the morning when it's just me walking around the apartment.
4-Say what you mean. Ok so I know I hate my gut and I really mean it.
5-Dress the part. I am not going to wait until I look like I am a two year old dressing in my mother's clothes. Once I drop a size I need to go get that smaller size. It was very comfortable with oversized clothes. Plus I like tight and/or form fitting clothes.
6-Recognize that people naturally come in different shapes and sizes, and cherish your body's uniqueness. "Only 2% of the world's women fall into the supermodel category. That leaves a lot of room for the rest of us!"
I am truly my own worst enemy... I need to cut that shit out!
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Searching For A Healthy Body Image

Back in August of 2011, I wrote a post called Life as a Fat Girl I wrote about how in my brain I always felt like a fat girl even when I wasn't. Now that I have lost a good about of weight, I am still having trouble with what my body looks like in my brain. The image that I see in the mirror and my brain is a super obese person. I see myself as being those people they make TLC (scare the masses) shows. The reasoning part of my brain knows that that's not true. I have seen the fat melt off my back. Then I look at my front and scream at it. "GO AWAY GUT!". I really have to work on this if I am in search of happiness.
WebMd suggests 6 ways to boosted your body image.
1- Stop negative self-talk immediately. Stop pointing out the bad parts. I have go turn "Oh my gut makes me look like I am pregnant again." into "I need to focused on work outs and meals that promotes weight loss in my mid-section." easier said then done...I am going to try.
2-Find and focus on the things you like about your looks. Over the last few month I have been focused on an age/stress spot that has showed up on the very top of my right cheek. It drives me crazy and I HATE wearing make up. So it stares at me when I look in the mirror. Now let's see what I can find.... Hey I think I have an awesome ass-et. There is a great view back there. That's a good thing to focus on.




3-Treat yourself with the same kindness and respect you show your best friend. Self kindness? This is my worst offense. I am very mean to myself. I have to schedule some kindness time. Maybe in the morning when it's just me walking around the apartment.
4-Say what you mean. Ok so I know I hate my gut and I really mean it.
5-Dress the part. I am not going to wait until I look like I am a two year old dressing in my mother's clothes. Once I drop a size I need to go get that smaller size. It was very comfortable with oversized clothes. Plus I like tight and/or form fitting clothes.
6-Recognize that people naturally come in different shapes and sizes, and cherish your body's uniqueness. "Only 2% of the world's women fall into the supermodel category. That leaves a lot of room for the rest of us!"
I am truly my own worst enemy... I need to cut that shit out!
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Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Emotional Eating

Over the last few weeks I have posted that I have been dealing with tons of stress. When I am under stress, I become an emotional wreck. My brain start to not turn off. I start losing lots of sleep. This turns into me eating to gain more energy. The food choices for that cycle isn't the best. I usually fall into the grab of cheese and sugary drinks. My sugary drink of choice is a D&D Iced Latte Carmel with whipped cream on top. I don't like sodas as a sugary drink, it's to gassy. The Latte brings me temporary joy, but not temporary calories. The calories can be temporary but I go so far over my daily WW points that it I don't want to do anything to earn activity points. To see the numbers is so discouraging.

The temporary pleasure of that drink is not the answer to my stress. The drink is gone and the stress is still here, the emotion is still there. Not good at all.

I want to revisited some questions from The 4 Day Diet by Dr. Ian K. Smith. I answered these question back in the summer time and I need to take a look at myself again.

These are the tough questions to answer before deciding to start a serious weigh loss program.



Why are you currently overweight?
I am currently overweight because I gained 100 pounds over an 11 year span. I gain the weight this diet with an increase in calorie intake and a decrease in physical activity.

Why have previous weight loss efforts failed?
I gave into my stress and started to over eat again. I also was discouraged by slow results.

How does your weight influence your self-esteem/self image?
Being at my heaviest I felt very ugly and sloppy. Now that I have loss 30lbs since the summer and 50lbs in total I feel better awesome. I like what I see and I want to see more change.

What are your strengths related to sticking to a weight loss program?
I love being successful! I like to see my numbers go down and getting new clothes. When I am focused on my task and I am able to complete any short term goals.

What are your weakness related to sticking to a weight loss program?
Giving into my STRESS!

What is your current BMI?
36.1kg/m^2

What does the chart say is a healthy weight for your height?
125 - 158lbs

What are your bad habits when it comes to exercising/eating right?
I let my stress distracted me for my workouts and keeps awake at night. The lack of energy pushes to to over eat.

What are your good habits when it comes to exercising/eating right?
I love high impacted work outs and biking. I love trying new fruits and veggies.

When was the last time you were at a weight you were happy with?
I was a high schools senior. I played a lot of volleyball and softball. I was 180lbs.

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Emotional Eating

Over the last few weeks I have posted that I have been dealing with tons of stress. When I am under stress, I become an emotional wreck. My brain start to not turn off. I start losing lots of sleep. This turns into me eating to gain more energy. The food choices for that cycle isn't the best. I usually fall into the grab of cheese and sugary drinks. My sugary drink of choice is a D&D Iced Latte Carmel with whipped cream on top. I don't like sodas as a sugary drink, it's to gassy. The Latte brings me temporary joy, but not temporary calories. The calories can be temporary but I go so far over my daily WW points that it I don't want to do anything to earn activity points. To see the numbers is so discouraging.

The temporary pleasure of that drink is not the answer to my stress. The drink is gone and the stress is still here, the emotion is still there. Not good at all.

I want to revisited some questions from The 4 Day Diet by Dr. Ian K. Smith. I answered these question back in the summer time and I need to take a look at myself again.

These are the tough questions to answer before deciding to start a serious weigh loss program.



Why are you currently overweight?
I am currently overweight because I gained 100 pounds over an 11 year span. I gain the weight this diet with an increase in calorie intake and a decrease in physical activity.

Why have previous weight loss efforts failed?
I gave into my stress and started to over eat again. I also was discouraged by slow results.

How does your weight influence your self-esteem/self image?
Being at my heaviest I felt very ugly and sloppy. Now that I have loss 30lbs since the summer and 50lbs in total I feel better awesome. I like what I see and I want to see more change.

What are your strengths related to sticking to a weight loss program?
I love being successful! I like to see my numbers go down and getting new clothes. When I am focused on my task and I am able to complete any short term goals.

What are your weakness related to sticking to a weight loss program?
Giving into my STRESS!

What is your current BMI?
36.1kg/m^2

What does the chart say is a healthy weight for your height?
125 - 158lbs

What are your bad habits when it comes to exercising/eating right?
I let my stress distracted me for my workouts and keeps awake at night. The lack of energy pushes to to over eat.

What are your good habits when it comes to exercising/eating right?
I love high impacted work outs and biking. I love trying new fruits and veggies.

When was the last time you were at a weight you were happy with?
I was a high schools senior. I played a lot of volleyball and softball. I was 180lbs.

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Monday, March 5, 2012

Differentating Instruction At Home

For the pass week, Big Al has been given a writing assignment for homework. Now this is torture for him and me. He cries that he doesn't want to write. He tries to get out of writing each and every time but he can't sucker me out of homework even when his teacher is absent. Big Al's teacher informed us last Monday that we were going to write sentences over the next few couple from the high frequency work list. If this task was just a reading assignment we would not have problem but since Big Al has a fine motor delay and Sensory Integration Disorder writing is, like I said, torture. It take a very very very long time to complete this task.

Last week I used familiar items that he uses in the classroom to see if I can follow along with what the teacher has done with him in the classroom. So I took out our white board and dry erase marker.

This method only work of the first 4 out of 10 words of the last for any even night last week. Argh! How frustrating for all. Today I realized that I am approached it the wrong way. That white board and black marker are so boring for me, I can't imagine how boring it is for him. I shouldn't try to copy the teacher but to change the method so that is pleasing for Big Al.

I broke out the Little Red Box Scholastic Foam Words. My bestie purchased this words for my kids back in the summer. We used them a lot during the summer time. The easily became an overwhelming mess, so I had to take them out of living educational activity rotation. I remembered that we had these words when we were looking to order Word Family Tiles. I whipped out the bags that they were in and started sorting out the words that I needed for today. I took at a set of words for each part of a sentence and hoped for the best.

Of course, when I told Big Al isn't tell to do homework he begin to cry and told me a grand story that he doesn't need to do homework Ms. Frail was absent. I told him that we know needs to happens next so we are doing homework. The tears quickly dried up when he show the colorful tiles and magnet boards. It still took a while to complete this task but he was A LOT less frustrating for us.


I started with the white magnetic board with the tile of the word that we needed to create a sentence with. Oh how easy was it for Big Al to pick out a word that made the sentence make sense. If he needs help I told him to take the words from a color group. He was able to create 8 out of the 10 sentence with little to no help. He was very proud of his words.

High five for Mommy Delivered Differentiated Instruction! (Yes, that it a title..lol)

After he showered and when to bed, I worked out the remaining words on the list. I created bags with the words tile, index card with the words that I don't have tiles for and a list of the words in the bag. This did take about an hour to sort out. I can see how this can work in the classroom. Parent Teacher Conference is coming up next week for the kids. I have to bring this to Ms. Frail and show her how it's done. #imjustsaying.

Week 35

This week I officially feel like I have done nothing to progress in my weight loss. The stress has taken over! I feel like I am gray cloud all the time. I am surrounded by negative vibes. This just make me want to eat overeat some sugary treats I really need to get back on the ball. I have been able to fit into my size 16 jeans comfortably and I want to be able to have them become too big on me. They only way that is going to happen if I shake myself out of this depression/funk! I need to read and keep motivated it. I have already ready signed up for some more group on Weight Watcher Online. I am going to try to keep up with them. WW has a lot of supportive groups. I hope this week coming is a better week.
Progress pictures:
 March 5th, 2012

Numbers & Goals Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs BMI 40.3 kg/m^2
This week's weight is: 237.6 lbs BMI 36.1 kg/m^2
Change since last week: -+0.6 lbs
Change from start: -30.9* lbs 11.51% lost

Measurements:
Arms: 14.5 in last week: +0.5in from start: -2.0 in
Hips: 45.5 in last week: +0.5in from start: -4.0in
Bust: 46in last week: 0.0in from start: -2.0ins
Waist: 36 in last week: 0.0in from start: -6.0in
Thigh: 26 in last week: +1.0in from start: -3.5in

This week's goals:
1- Really get back on track
2- Track each and every piece of food that enters my mouth
3- Earn activity points
4- Really work on de-stressing
5- Water and lots of it!
6- Focus more on myself and my goal

Last week's goals:
1- SLEEP! Not really
2-Tracking each day.. Mostly
3-Earn 7 activity points each day starting Monday. NO!!
4- Water, water and more water Yes!

Week 35

This week I officially feel like I have done nothing to progress in my weight loss. The stress has taken over! I feel like I am gray cloud all the time. I am surrounded by negative vibes. This just make me want to eat overeat some sugary treats I really need to get back on the ball. I have been able to fit into my size 16 jeans comfortably and I want to be able to have them become too big on me. They only way that is going to happen if I shake myself out of this depression/funk! I need to read and keep motivated it. I have already ready signed up for some more group on Weight Watcher Online. I am going to try to keep up with them. WW has a lot of supportive groups. I hope this week coming is a better week.
Progress pictures:
 March 5th, 2012

Numbers & Goals Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs BMI 40.3 kg/m^2
This week's weight is: 237.6 lbs BMI 36.1 kg/m^2
Change since last week: -+0.6 lbs
Change from start: -30.9* lbs 11.51% lost

Measurements:
Arms: 14.5 in last week: +0.5in from start: -2.0 in
Hips: 45.5 in last week: +0.5in from start: -4.0in
Bust: 46in last week: 0.0in from start: -2.0ins
Waist: 36 in last week: 0.0in from start: -6.0in
Thigh: 26 in last week: +1.0in from start: -3.5in

This week's goals:
1- Really get back on track
2- Track each and every piece of food that enters my mouth
3- Earn activity points
4- Really work on de-stressing
5- Water and lots of it!
6- Focus more on myself and my goal

Last week's goals:
1- SLEEP! Not really
2-Tracking each day.. Mostly
3-Earn 7 activity points each day starting Monday. NO!!
4- Water, water and more water Yes!