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Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Feeling Guilty....

Yesterday the weather was so awesome. While I was at work all I could think about was riding my bike. I wanted to feel the air rushing passed me. I wanted to feel the record breaking warmth on my skin. I just wanted to ride. When I got home my kids just wanted to spend their time with me. They haven't seen me all day and wanted to climb all over me. I told my husband that I really, really wanted to ride my bike but I didn't know if I should go. I felt gulity that I haven't spent enough time with them and I wanted to go out on my own....Why do I feel guilty when I want to better myself?

After I rode my 8 miles I felt better. My blood was pumping and mama was happy. I just love all the attention my bike gets. At least 5 people tell me our awesome my Lenny is each time I go out. (Thanks Roxy!)

When I got home, the kids were still able to climb all over me. Lots of sweaty hugs and kisses. I still spent plenty of time with them. I was still able to cook a healthy meal for them and enjoy each other company while eating.

I have that a mommy complex that I feel that I need to give every last second of my time to my children. I feel that I am the only one that will give them the best care. I have to remember that I have to do things for myself. I can't always wait until they are all in bed to do a workout. I can't always wake up before everyone is up to run or bike. I needed to make time for myself....and I did.

Feeling Guilty....

Yesterday the weather was so awesome. While I was at work all I could think about was riding my bike. I wanted to feel the air rushing passed me. I wanted to feel the record breaking warmth on my skin. I just wanted to ride. When I got home my kids just wanted to spend their time with me. They haven't seen me all day and wanted to climb all over me. I told my husband that I really, really wanted to ride my bike but I didn't know if I should go. I felt gulity that I haven't spent enough time with them and I wanted to go out on my own....Why do I feel guilty when I want to better myself?

After I rode my 8 miles I felt better. My blood was pumping and mama was happy. I just love all the attention my bike gets. At least 5 people tell me our awesome my Lenny is each time I go out. (Thanks Roxy!)

When I got home, the kids were still able to climb all over me. Lots of sweaty hugs and kisses. I still spent plenty of time with them. I was still able to cook a healthy meal for them and enjoy each other company while eating.

I have that a mommy complex that I feel that I need to give every last second of my time to my children. I feel that I am the only one that will give them the best care. I have to remember that I have to do things for myself. I can't always wait until they are all in bed to do a workout. I can't always wake up before everyone is up to run or bike. I needed to make time for myself....and I did.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Week 21

My sister and I Thanksgiving Day
I've had a very successful week! I am made it to my next goal of 10% of body mass lost. YAY!! Those that are on my Facebook and the Twitter know this already. It's a great feeling to know that I finally made it to this goal. Last week I was very worried that I was going to keep gaining weight slowly. My next goal is to make it to 238.5 lbs or lose 30 lbs in total. I am only 2.7 pounds away from this goal. If I stay very focused I could make this goal in 9 days. Eye of the tiger people!!! 

I was able to focus on the WW program even with Thanksgiving staring me in the face. This wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. I don't track on Thanksgiving but I was able to limit my food intake.


I have noticed big changes in the way my body works when I reached -25 pounds. My nails are a lot stronger and grow much more quickly. This four day weekend I got the kids cold and I recovered from it within two days. It normally takes a week or more to fight it. Another major change is how fast I get cold now. I didn't realize how much those 25+ pounds insulated me. This is going to be an interesting winter. I see lots of sweaters in my future.

The one thing that is bugging me the most is my mid-section. This is where I am holding almost all of my excess weight. I know that it's going to take a long long time before it goes away...can I wish it away? Nope! I have to work extra hard to slim my mid-section. I need make some exercise changes to focus on this problem area.

Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs BMI 40.3
This week's weight is: 241.2 lbs BMI 36.7
Change since last week: -2.8 lbs
Change from start: -27.3 lbs <~~~~10.17% lost!

Measurements:
Arms: 14.5 in last week: -0.5in from start: -2.0in
Hips: 46.5 in last week: -1.0in from start: -3.0in
Bust: 46in last week: 0.0in from start: -1.0ins
Waist: 37in last week: 0.0 in from start: -5.5in
Thigh: 24in last week: -1.0 in from start: -4.5in

Last week's goals:

1- Get this thing called sleep I got some sleep on the day five days...but still feel very tired.
2- Track my foods everyday this week I didn't track on Thursday.
3- Earn 8 activity points each day this week I was able to earn 8 activity points four days this week. 5 on every other day except Thursday.
4- Try a new recipe  I haven't found one I want to try yet.
5- Lose not gain weight  YES!!!

This week's goals:
1- Still work on my sleeping patterns
2- Track my foods everyday this coming week
3- Look a recipe that I would like to try
4- Earn 6 activity points each day this week

Week 21

My sister and I Thanksgiving Day
I've had a very successful week! I am made it to my next goal of 10% of body mass lost. YAY!! Those that are on my Facebook and the Twitter know this already. It's a great feeling to know that I finally made it to this goal. Last week I was very worried that I was going to keep gaining weight slowly. My next goal is to make it to 238.5 lbs or lose 30 lbs in total. I am only 2.7 pounds away from this goal. If I stay very focused I could make this goal in 9 days. Eye of the tiger people!!! 

I was able to focus on the WW program even with Thanksgiving staring me in the face. This wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. I don't track on Thanksgiving but I was able to limit my food intake.


I have noticed big changes in the way my body works when I reached -25 pounds. My nails are a lot stronger and grow much more quickly. This four day weekend I got the kids cold and I recovered from it within two days. It normally takes a week or more to fight it. Another major change is how fast I get cold now. I didn't realize how much those 25+ pounds insulated me. This is going to be an interesting winter. I see lots of sweaters in my future.

The one thing that is bugging me the most is my mid-section. This is where I am holding almost all of my excess weight. I know that it's going to take a long long time before it goes away...can I wish it away? Nope! I have to work extra hard to slim my mid-section. I need make some exercise changes to focus on this problem area.

Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs BMI 40.3
This week's weight is: 241.2 lbs BMI 36.7
Change since last week: -2.8 lbs
Change from start: -27.3 lbs <~~~~10.17% lost!

Measurements:
Arms: 14.5 in last week: -0.5in from start: -2.0in
Hips: 46.5 in last week: -1.0in from start: -3.0in
Bust: 46in last week: 0.0in from start: -1.0ins
Waist: 37in last week: 0.0 in from start: -5.5in
Thigh: 24in last week: -1.0 in from start: -4.5in

Last week's goals:

1- Get this thing called sleep I got some sleep on the day five days...but still feel very tired.
2- Track my foods everyday this week I didn't track on Thursday.
3- Earn 8 activity points each day this week I was able to earn 8 activity points four days this week. 5 on every other day except Thursday.
4- Try a new recipe  I haven't found one I want to try yet.
5- Lose not gain weight  YES!!!

This week's goals:
1- Still work on my sleeping patterns
2- Track my foods everyday this coming week
3- Look a recipe that I would like to try
4- Earn 6 activity points each day this week

Friday, November 25, 2011

Hugh Jackman Back on Broadway!

My very awesome Bestie, Roxanne, is the greatest Hugh Jackman fan. She is such an awesome fan she asked for Hugh for Christmas last year. Her sister got her a sign picture of him. Yummy! When Roxanne heard that Hugh was going to be on Broadway for 10 weeks ONLY, she brought two tickets and told me I was going with her. Could I really say no to the Wolverine? NO WAY! She brought the tickets just around Halloween for the day before Thanksgiving show.

Of course, it's always a big ordeal when mommy tries to get away for some fun. Who's watching the Als and where? Who's picking up Becky for father family time? I always get a few gray hairs by the time everything is figured out. This is way I limit myself to fun time away from the family...sometimes the stress is not worth it. Sad...I know.

The great day of Jackman-ness finally arrived. YAY!! I was very excited because I hadn't been to a Broadway show in what seems like 100 years. The show was at 8pm so we had a little bit of time to fill between work and the show. Who would have known that we would not run into any traffic on our way down town the day before Thanksgiving? So we had time to sit and chat. We said we were going to fall asleep but that was not going to happen.We chatted about how jealous Roxanne's other close friends of me seeing Hugh. HA!

Before the show started we grabbed a bite to eat at Roxy Deli. The food was yummy and served quickly. However, this place is tiny!! I was very uncomfortable. I must have been bumped into five times while eating my onion soup. Roxanne experienced the bathroom....Her experience was not pleasant. I am happy that I was able to hold it until we got outside and headed to a Starbucks.

While at Starbucks I realized that I lost a lot of weight in my feet. My feet were pushed up to the front of the heels that I worn. Roxanne had mention it at work but there nothing like the experience. Ouch! I wasn't in too much pain just yet. Roxanne picked up a tea from Starbucks and we sat next to the TKTS booth. Here Roxanne truly realized that she is getting old. She was looking at the young kids with there legs exposed to the cold weather and said they were crazy to out like that. (That's old talk) I am happy I was here when she realized that she is going to be officially old in a few months. BIG HUGS ROXY!

After a lap around Times Square for cough drops (old people candy), we headed to the Broadhurst Theater see the man himself, Hugh Jackman. Roxanne turned pink the moment we reached the theater. We sat up top. She was very focused on Boo to no photography in the theater! The announcer in informing us to turn off cellphone and no photography told us that he is Wolverine and he will find us. That was very funny!

The house lights went down the spot light was bright, I felt Roxanne hold very still and the women next to me was shaking. I felt like I was not as excited as I should be. I need to be way more excited sitting there. I am Hugh fan but nothing compared to those who surrounded me. Especially the lively group of men sitting behind us. I had never seen Hugh sing before but they had seen everything he has ever been in. I need to step up my Hugh game.

Listening to Hugh singing was awesome. He sing many melodies and joked around. He joked about being under contact for the next Wolverine movie and how they movie people were afraid that he was going to lose mass and he a flamboyant Wolverine when they start filming again.

I loved that Hugh went into the audience and pulled someone out. Stan was a very lucky man, so was Stan's wife. Hugh pulled Stan on the stage and had a hilarious dialogue. Hugh was not expecting Stan to be so funny. Stan invited Hugh to Thanksgiving dinner. Hugh sing to Stan's wife...a very lucky women.

I laughed a lot and I learned a lot about Hugh. After intermission he came back as Peter Allen in one of the box! Hugh played Peter Allen in the musical The Boy from Oz. Hugh sat on the leap of the gentlemen seating in the box. He quickly grabbed Hugh's hips! Hugh said, "We are legal in New York now." The crowd cheered. Little did he know that the gentleman was married to the gentleman sitting next to him. They showed everyone their rings. OMG, Hugh plays an awesome gay men. He could have had me fooled. He also had us all cracking up over something one of the ladies in his ensemble, Kearran, did during intermission backstage. She gobbled. It was very very funny. He asked her to do it over and over. "Gobble, gobble, gobble." It was so simple and super funny!

After Peter Allen he did a quick change for his dedication to his country, Australia. He was joined by four Indigenous Australian musicians and they sang Somewhere over the rain. I was near tears because it was so beautiful. He introduced his Indigenous Australian musicians to us and you can see how proud he is of his country. He continued the showed with amazing melodies of musicals he loved growing up with. I was in awe of this fine man.

When he wrapped up the show he had the house on their feet. He asked everyone to sit down so that he can inform us of the fundraiser, Broadway Cares / Equity Fight AIDS. He asked that we donated something on our way out to the cause and suddenly one of the gentleman behind us screamed out "$1,000 FOR YOUR SHIRT." Hugh was shocked! He opened his white dress shirt and said that he can sign and give the undershirt for $1,000. Then he begin to auction it off. When he reached $5,000 a gentleman from below shouted, "$5,000 FOR TWO FRONT ROW SEATS FOR ANOTHER SHOW!" Hugh was taken back and pushed to see he could get more. He asked the gentleman $5,000 for each seat. The gentlemen said yes. Hugh continued to auction off the undershirt and the another undershirt. He got $6,000 for each undershirt! He also offered anyone willing to donate $2,000 to Broadway Cares he will do a meet and greet with them and take pictures. I thought to myself Roxanne so needs to do that. She said she thought about it too but everyone would think she is crazy for doing that. I wouldn't have thought she was crazy. The money would have went to two great causes: Broadway Cares and Roxanne's happiness.

I am very thankful that I was able to share such a great night with my Bestie. I was a great change in my world-o-momminess.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Little Bunny Foo Foo

The adventures in potty training continues.....

Potty training Little Al is turning out to be the hardest out of the 3. I am very happy that she no longer reaches into her pull up and pulling out Cookies or decorating my TV. However, it has been very difficult to figuring out her schedule.  Her favorite pass time is pooping at Titi's house but she isn't there everyday anymore. What I have recently discovered she enjoys pooping when Daddy is the only one around. Of course Daddy is not happy one bit. As a result he has become proactive in the potty training adventure. He wants to poop potty train her because he is tired of cleaning poop....this is very understandable. Shhh... don't tell him you have to master number one before you can master number two..

He is trying to get her timing down but Little Al is not giving in. Today was not any different. While I was being Big Alex's homework refocus-er, Little Al smelled showed signs it was time to go. Daddy took her to the toilet potty and she was happy as can be. He watched over her so that she doesn't make it rain q-tips, another favorite pass time. I hear her start to sing. I also heard Daddy say stop moving. I shouted, "Do you know what she is singing?"
"No?"
"She is singing Little Bunny Foo Foo."
Silence...
I said "That is too funny."

I wasn't in the bathroom but I can't see him trying to get her to focus on number two and all she is worried about is singing Little Bunny Foo Foo. I love it!

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Week 20

Well it's been 5 months since I re-started this weight loss journey. I really can't believe it's been this all already. This week I was completely off program. Stress has taken over my life. Stress at home and stress at work. The stress has disturbed my sleep. I've been so focused on the problems that I have not tracked all week, not even one day. I wasn't aware of the amount of food I was sticking in my body. I do know that it was way too much. I exercised once. I earned 8 points riding my bike for an hour yesterday. I REALLY need to get back on track before the gains start adding up more. It's almost as if I need to restart again.

I have lost my motivation to exercises. It hasn't become boring to me. It's been a battle trying to break the routines of those around so that I have enough time to get it in. If I am the only one running around doing things then my time cut down for myself. This is been the biggest battle over the last five months.

There is a silver lining in this...I fit into smaller clothes. Last week I punched a 4th hole into my belt and I decided it was time to buy a new one. I went online to my favorite clothing store, Old Navy. I brought a new belt, shirt, hoodie and coat. I actually had to use the size chart to figure out what size I am now. My old method was buy a 2X and it fits or is too big, keep it. If it is too small I let it sit in my dresser until I find someone to give it to. It's not a very good method. Now since I measure myself each week I actually know my measurements. It was a little strange looking at the size chart, but it was nice to see that I am now between a size 16 and a size 18. YAY!! I am 2ins away from a size 16. That means I am and XL (according to Old Navy.) This is very exciting for me. I can't remember the last time I was an XL. I think it was some time in 1999. This is a great feeling. I need to get back on track so I am keep feeling great going.

Progress Pictures:


Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs BMI 40.3
This week's weight is: 244.0 lbs BMI 37.1
Change since last week: +0.8 lbs
Change from start: -24.5 lbs

Measurements:
Arms: 15 in last week: +0.75in from start: -1.50in
Hips: 47.5 in last week: +0.5in from start: -2.0in
Bust: 46in last week: +1.0in from start: -1.0ins
Waist: 37in last week: +1.0 in from start: -5.5in
Thigh: 25in last week: +0.5 in from start: -3.5in

Let's review last week's goals:
1- Work on sleeping the right about of hours... Still working on that
2- Track my foods every day this week ... NOPE!
3- Earn 6 activity points each day this week ...NOPE!
4- Try a new recipe...NOPE!
5- Lose 2lbs to reach my next goal....NOPE!
6- FOCUS!! ...NOPE!

This week's goals:
1- Get this thing called sleep
2- Track my foods everyday this week
3- Earn 8 activity points each day this week
4- Try a new recipe
5- Lose not gain weight

Week 20

Well it's been 5 months since I re-started this weight loss journey. I really can't believe it's been this all already. This week I was completely off program. Stress has taken over my life. Stress at home and stress at work. The stress has disturbed my sleep. I've been so focused on the problems that I have not tracked all week, not even one day. I wasn't aware of the amount of food I was sticking in my body. I do know that it was way too much. I exercised once. I earned 8 points riding my bike for an hour yesterday. I REALLY need to get back on track before the gains start adding up more. It's almost as if I need to restart again.

I have lost my motivation to exercises. It hasn't become boring to me. It's been a battle trying to break the routines of those around so that I have enough time to get it in. If I am the only one running around doing things then my time cut down for myself. This is been the biggest battle over the last five months.

There is a silver lining in this...I fit into smaller clothes. Last week I punched a 4th hole into my belt and I decided it was time to buy a new one. I went online to my favorite clothing store, Old Navy. I brought a new belt, shirt, hoodie and coat. I actually had to use the size chart to figure out what size I am now. My old method was buy a 2X and it fits or is too big, keep it. If it is too small I let it sit in my dresser until I find someone to give it to. It's not a very good method. Now since I measure myself each week I actually know my measurements. It was a little strange looking at the size chart, but it was nice to see that I am now between a size 16 and a size 18. YAY!! I am 2ins away from a size 16. That means I am and XL (according to Old Navy.) This is very exciting for me. I can't remember the last time I was an XL. I think it was some time in 1999. This is a great feeling. I need to get back on track so I am keep feeling great going.

Progress Pictures:


Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs BMI 40.3
This week's weight is: 244.0 lbs BMI 37.1
Change since last week: +0.8 lbs
Change from start: -24.5 lbs

Measurements:
Arms: 15 in last week: +0.75in from start: -1.50in
Hips: 47.5 in last week: +0.5in from start: -2.0in
Bust: 46in last week: +1.0in from start: -1.0ins
Waist: 37in last week: +1.0 in from start: -5.5in
Thigh: 25in last week: +0.5 in from start: -3.5in

Let's review last week's goals:
1- Work on sleeping the right about of hours... Still working on that
2- Track my foods every day this week ... NOPE!
3- Earn 6 activity points each day this week ...NOPE!
4- Try a new recipe...NOPE!
5- Lose 2lbs to reach my next goal....NOPE!
6- FOCUS!! ...NOPE!

This week's goals:
1- Get this thing called sleep
2- Track my foods everyday this week
3- Earn 8 activity points each day this week
4- Try a new recipe
5- Lose not gain weight

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Parent Teacher Conference 3 of 3

This Mama is happy that she is done with PTCs. I get very stressed about these things. Sometimes I just feel like reaching over the table and shaking people. There is always one place where I never have that feeling, Easter Seals. I just loved this place....Let me re-phrase that. I just love all the service providers there. I love the warm welcome I get when I walk in the front door. I am happy that Little Al will be there for the remainder of this year and next year. This brings enjoy to my world because I don't have to worry about the quality of service provided to Little Al. The providers give their all to the children.

I got to finally sit down with Little Al's teacher and teacher assistants. Little Al's teacher is the same center based Early Intervention she had last school year and the assistants are new to the classroom. The teacher was very positive about Little Al's progress. Since she was with her for some time she can really see the improvements. She has also seen the change in her awareness. She is aware of the child around her, wet diapers and classroom rules. That awareness has also allowed options to surface. Temper tantrums and food dislikes are more frequent. We figured since she is about a year delayed, she has reached her terrible twos. This same thing happened to Big Al so I was not suprised when the teacher mentioned it. She has improved in all development areas. All I have to say to AMEN to Assistive Tech! Those new legs are worked wonders for her. The teacher pointed out that I am the only parent that puts the legs on every day. I told her that I learned how important they are with Big Al's new legs and we are going to use these legs until she can't use them anymore. I thanked them over and over again for working with Little Al everyday. Extra thanks for trying so hard to get her to sit on the toilet. She always reaches in and plays with the water. Not good...very funny because of their expressions....still not good. Now that I think of it I didn't share our chant when Little Al does makes pee-pee.

Besides that great report I got my new Cool Culture Family Pass!! This is the next greatest thing Easter Seals has given to us. I love going to cultural spots all over the city for FREE. I want my next trip to be to the NYBG train show. The kids and I can't wait.

We also got a free start up Go Bag. I am happy they gave us more stuff to put in our family go bag.

I was also unable to catch up with Big Al former teacher. She is still just amazing! I caught her you on the Guobadia world. I wish I could just take her with me every where Big Al goes. She is the greatest.

I <3 Easter Seals. I don't have to battle. The battles are left for the IEP meetings not the day to day.

Wordless Wednesday


- Posted from my iPhone

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Parent Teacher Conference 2 of 3

It's that time of year where the Department of Education finally set some time for the Parents to talk to their child's teachers for more then the few minutes (maybe more then a few minutes) at arrival and dismissal. Today was Becky and Big Al's Parent Teacher Conference. Yep PTC at 2 schools in one day. Thank you Easter Seals for not having your PTC on the same day. I do not know how I have going to do it when Becky is in 7th grade, Big Al is in 2nd grade and Little Al in Kindergarten. They will most likely be in three different school again with PTC all on the same day. EKKKK!!!

Back to today... I have been spoiled on PTC for the time Becky has spent at her school. I am ALWAYS the first parent on the list. I can usually sneak in during our hour hour to get a run down of her progress and goals. This PTC was a little different. This was Becky first year being apart of an ICT (Integrated Co-Teaching) classroom setting. "Students with disabilities who receive Integrated Co-Teaching (Collaborative Team Teaching) services are educated with age appropriate peers in the general education classroom. ICT/CTT provides students the opportunity to be educated alongside their non-disabled peers with the full-time support of a special education teacher throughout the day to assist in adapting and modifying instruction." (UFT, 2011)

Becky is apart of the general education part of the setting. I was very pleased to found out at the end of last school year that her 4th grade teacher was going to be the general education teacher. About a month ago, the original special education was removed from the classroom and was replaced with ....a newbie...This is her first year teaching.. Mama's not happy about this switch. The combo of the original teachers worked very well....now....it is not working. The newbie doesn't return my notes. She doesn't really talk to my daughter, according to my daughter. Now, let's remember that I do work in the same school my daughter attends.....remember that. Becky's general ed teacher was absent today and yesterday because of illness. So the newbie was alone right out the gate.

When 1pm hit I walked down the hall and signed the parent sign in sheet. The newbie walks out of the classroom to get last minute information from the office. I tell her that I am going to sign her sheet and wait patiently until she comes back. She stopped in her tracks.

"Which student is yours?"

I said Becky's entire name

"That brilliant child is ours? I didn't know that. "

"Yes she has been mine for the last 10.5 years."

She traveled downstairs and up again. While waiting I read the final draft of a writing piece I helped Becky with last week on the classroom bulletin board. She didn't want me to see the final draft. She wanted to do it on her own. I read it and said to myself, "She makes a lot of the same mistakes I made in 5th grade." A few teachers who were walking on the other end of the hallway were kind of giggling that I was the newbie's first parent for her first PTC.

When the newbie returned she said to give her a few minutes to get ready. She was running around the classroom like a chicken with no head. She was looking through papers, moving things around and walking back and fourth. After about 10 minutes, she asked me in. I asked her where we were sitting because there was so clear area where the conference was happening. She pointed to where it was going to be. She sat for two seconds and popped up because she forgot to write something.

Now let's begin...

She was still in shock that I was Becky's mother. I told her that Becky is a regular student in this school like everyone else. She doesn't have a special pass to act out of mess up just because mommy is in the library. I made that very clear to her. I asked her about the notes she didn't response to....she stumbled on her words. I felt her nervousness. She stated that she really didn't know much about Becky but she knows she behaves well. That is not an answer that I wanted to hear. We went back and fourth. I really do not want to get into that because after all she is my co-worker. I will be having a 2nd PTC was Becky's general education teacher. Mama's still not happy and I am going to leave it at that.

Now it's Big Al's turn. I had to wait until 5pm to go to his PTC. I got there on time to be the 2nd parents. DANG IT...I hate being 2nd! So while I am waiting I read Big Al's work on the classroom bulletin board. His work was a shape explanation of a jack o lantern. It was very cute. I waited and waited. You can hear the mother a head of me telling the teacher her life story.

"I have a 14 year old giving me problems at home and I have a baby at home too. I don't have the time to do all this extra work with my son."

I wish I didn't hear that. I began to listen closer.

"I don't like to deal with his behavior sometimes. I get so tired and I just put him in his room to leave me a long. I am just tired"

I wish I didn't hear that either.

I was so pissed!! It's parents like you that make my life harder. I busted my butt to get everything for my child but you are tired. Your son is sitting next to my child in classroom and your are treating your child like trash because he is in special education or because you are too tired. Your child probably didn't need to be in special education if you would just gave a damn. Ok....I am stepping off the soap box.

After 25 minutes, I finally got to see the teacher. She was very happy to see me because she has only met me once. I sat down and quickly asked her about his transitioning issues.

"Oh he is having a difficult time changing for one thing to the next, but the crying has got better."

"Well on his IEP there are transitioning plans for him have you try them."

"Yes yes."

"I don't think you have..next question."

"How is adjusting to your accent. He has very little contact when anyone with an accent."

"He is doing fine with it, but don't you speak Spanish?"

"No... hence why I asked about your accent. He has a speech impairment so if you are saying something a bit differently with your accent he may get confused."

"Oh oh that has happened sometimes."

"Have you read his evaluations from his last school."

"No because we do our own evaluations and assessments here."

"You should read it. He has PDD-NOS but his evaluations were rejected by the DOE."

A light bulb went off in her head, "That explains a lot!"

"That explains everything. My son is a very smart boy with some impairments. He deserves everything that I can physically give him. If you are not on task with him and his paperwork we have a problem."

"No no that is no problem. I am just happy that we are on the same team."

What I wanted to say was "I am on Team Alexander, not Team DOE." Instead I said, "I am one of the most hardest working parents you'll ever met. My son has come a long long way and I am not going to stop his success."

We review his report card and his attendance sheet. He is struggles in ELA, I expected since he is speech impaired. He is doing awesome in Math and Social Studies.  She also informed me that he has started receiving ESL services. I told her that English is his one and only language. She said, "He scored very low in the ELL assessment the school decided to provide him with ESL." I guess I can't fight extra services.
Mama was happy when I left because I proven once again that I am an awesome mom of special education. It really drains me when I have to get my points across to people that do not know me from the last parent that walked in that door.

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Week 19

This pass week was very rough. I totally fell off of program. I only tracked my foods twice this week, Tuesday and Friday. I dealt with a lot of eating trigger. Marital stress and lack of sleep mid week. The marital stress has been on going for some time now. This is not the forum to get into that, sorry readers. The lack of sleep mid week was because Little Al was sick as a dog. I had to stay awake for asthma treatments, vomit clean up and back rubs. The lack of sleep caused me to eat to get energy. I don't even know how many points I used that day. I am sure it was too much. I really need to refocus.

Yesterday's bike ride reminded me how awesome exercise is. It makes me very happy and motivated. This week I really want to reach my 10% goal. I don't know anyone in my personally life that can say they have lost 9.42% of their body mass over the last 18 weeks let alone 10%. I have to keep pushing forward dang it!

Also, this morning I made a 4th hole in my belt. I know I need to stop playing myself and just buy a new belt. I am so picky when it comes to belts. I do not like this girlie girl belt with stuff on it that pokes the bottom of my muffin top. I also don't want to get a manly men belt.  Maybe when I am a few more sizes smaller that will change. Until I find the right belt the 4th hole is going to have to work.

Numbers time:

Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs BMI 40.3
This week's weight is: 243.2 lbs BMI 37.0
Change since last week: +0.8 lbs
Change from start: -25.3 lbs -9.42% <-----Still awesome!

Measurements:
Arms: 14.25 in last week: +0.25in from start: -2.25in
Hips: 47 in last week: +1.0in from start: -2.5in
Bust: 46in last week: +1.0in from start: -1.0ins
Waist: 36in last week: 0.0 in from start: -6.5in
Thigh: 24.5in last week: +0.5 in from start: -4.0in

Let's review last week's goals:
1- SLEEP!! Tomorrow is going to be difficult. :-/ I am going to try to sleep well the rest of the week My sleep was screw up because I had to care for a sick child mid-week. I was unable to sleep in on Friday.
2- Run/Walk one day this week Nope
3- Earn 6 activity points each day this week  Nope
4- Stop snacking on the wrong things Nope
5- Finally get the gym on Friday! Nope
6- Try a new recipe Nope
7- Lose 0.9 lbs to reach my next goal Nope

This week's goal
1- Work on sleeping the right about of hours
2- Track my foods every day this week
3- Earn 6 activity points each day this week
4- Try a new recipe
5- Lose 2lbs to reach my next goal.
6- FOCUS!!

Next week month 5 progress pictures!

Week 19

This pass week was very rough. I totally fell off of program. I only tracked my foods twice this week, Tuesday and Friday. I dealt with a lot of eating trigger. Marital stress and lack of sleep mid week. The marital stress has been on going for some time now. This is not the forum to get into that, sorry readers. The lack of sleep mid week was because Little Al was sick as a dog. I had to stay awake for asthma treatments, vomit clean up and back rubs. The lack of sleep caused me to eat to get energy. I don't even know how many points I used that day. I am sure it was too much. I really need to refocus.

Yesterday's bike ride reminded me how awesome exercise is. It makes me very happy and motivated. This week I really want to reach my 10% goal. I don't know anyone in my personally life that can say they have lost 9.42% of their body mass over the last 18 weeks let alone 10%. I have to keep pushing forward dang it!

Also, this morning I made a 4th hole in my belt. I know I need to stop playing myself and just buy a new belt. I am so picky when it comes to belts. I do not like this girlie girl belt with stuff on it that pokes the bottom of my muffin top. I also don't want to get a manly men belt.  Maybe when I am a few more sizes smaller that will change. Until I find the right belt the 4th hole is going to have to work.

Numbers time:

Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs BMI 40.3
This week's weight is: 243.2 lbs BMI 37.0
Change since last week: +0.8 lbs
Change from start: -25.3 lbs -9.42% <-----Still awesome!

Measurements:
Arms: 14.25 in last week: +0.25in from start: -2.25in
Hips: 47 in last week: +1.0in from start: -2.5in
Bust: 46in last week: +1.0in from start: -1.0ins
Waist: 36in last week: 0.0 in from start: -6.5in
Thigh: 24.5in last week: +0.5 in from start: -4.0in

Let's review last week's goals:
1- SLEEP!! Tomorrow is going to be difficult. :-/ I am going to try to sleep well the rest of the week My sleep was screw up because I had to care for a sick child mid-week. I was unable to sleep in on Friday.
2- Run/Walk one day this week Nope
3- Earn 6 activity points each day this week  Nope
4- Stop snacking on the wrong things Nope
5- Finally get the gym on Friday! Nope
6- Try a new recipe Nope
7- Lose 0.9 lbs to reach my next goal Nope

This week's goal
1- Work on sleeping the right about of hours
2- Track my foods every day this week
3- Earn 6 activity points each day this week
4- Try a new recipe
5- Lose 2lbs to reach my next goal.
6- FOCUS!!

Next week month 5 progress pictures!

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Pelham Parkway Greenway

Finally... I got back on my bike! After running Big Al back and fourth from dance the sun was calling me. It was a little chilly, perfect weather to be outdoors. Since my hubby was trapped in the world of Xbox, I decided to set on an adventure with Lenny (my bike) while the kids danced around him.

When it was time to drop Becky off to her dance class, I grabbed my bike and headed to the studio. Becky was very excited to see my bike rolling. I asked her if she wanted to sit on it on the way to the studio. She said yes right away. She strapped on my helmet and hopped on. Of course she was WAY to short for the pedals, so I held the bike tightly. She laughed the entire walk to the studio. She now knows the fine art of braking. I dropped her off and off I went.

I headed to the Pelham Parkway Greenway. Getting there was a very bumpy ride. There were A LOT of pot holes on the south side of Fordham Rd/Bronx Parkway walk way. I made it passed Boston and White Plains Roads with all my body parts. Cars there DO NOT respect cyclist. I was happy when I made it to the greenway.

The trees were breath taking. The sun was just right. The greenway was calling my name.

I kept pedalling. My lungs were open. My heart was pumping. It was so great!

The greenway is 1.6 miles long, it took my about 30 mins to make it to the end from the studio. I felt very awesome when I made it to the end. Here is Lenny's victory pose:

In the end I biked:
Distance: 8 miles
Start time: 2:25 pm
Duration: 60 minutes
Outdoor Temperature: 57 degrees

Not bad for a newbie cyclist. I am going to try to sneak away tomorrow and do it again.

Pelham Parkway Greenway

Finally... I got back on my bike! After running Big Al back and fourth from dance the sun was calling me. It was a little chilly, perfect weather to be outdoors. Since my hubby was trapped in the world of Xbox, I decided to set on an adventure with Lenny (my bike) while the kids danced around him.

When it was time to drop Becky off to her dance class, I grabbed my bike and headed to the studio. Becky was very excited to see my bike rolling. I asked her if she wanted to sit on it on the way to the studio. She said yes right away. She strapped on my helmet and hopped on. Of course she was WAY to short for the pedals, so I held the bike tightly. She laughed the entire walk to the studio. She now knows the fine art of braking. I dropped her off and off I went.

I headed to the Pelham Parkway Greenway. Getting there was a very bumpy ride. There were A LOT of pot holes on the south side of Fordham Rd/Bronx Parkway walk way. I made it passed Boston and White Plains Roads with all my body parts. Cars there DO NOT respect cyclist. I was happy when I made it to the greenway.

The trees were breath taking. The sun was just right. The greenway was calling my name.

I kept pedalling. My lungs were open. My heart was pumping. It was so great!

The greenway is 1.6 miles long, it took my about 30 mins to make it to the end from the studio. I felt very awesome when I made it to the end. Here is Lenny's victory pose:

In the end I biked:
Distance: 8 miles
Start time: 2:25 pm
Duration: 60 minutes
Outdoor Temperature: 57 degrees

Not bad for a newbie cyclist. I am going to try to sneak away tomorrow and do it again.

Monday, November 7, 2011

Big Al's Friend

Over the pass three years, I have not been lucky enough to be much active in my kids school. You guys must think I am insane! I want to be able to attend more meetings and trips not just go to required parent teacher meetings. I want to be a PTA mom. :-/ Damn this full time job! Moving on....

One good thing about Big Al attending the school around the corner from our home is I am able to bring him to school on rare occasions. The days that I am able to walk that one block I cherish. He is so proud to be standing next to his mommy and sisters waiting for the Asst. Principal to open the front doors. On even more rare occasions we get to see a children from his class. Since there are only 6 kids in his class the probability we run into a classmate is 1 in 50ish.

We were standing in our usually spot in front of the building and suddenly Big Al exclaims, "Christina! Mommy Christina is coming with her grandma! HI CHRISTINA!!"

This isn't the first time we met Christina however this was the first time we were introduced.

Christina runs up to Big Al and shouts, "HI ALEXANDER!"

She looks up at me and says, "Hi, my name is Christina."

Her eyes were not focused on my face. She looked a little off to the side of my face with her brass glasses pressed up against her face. The left side of the glasses were off her ear so her glasses were slanted. Her hair was braided and beaded. She smiled slanted just like her glasses. What a beautiful face. 

Big Al quickly jumps in and say, " Hey Christina, these are my friends" (He was pointing at his sisters)

"Becky and Alyson are my friendsm Christina."

"Hi, friends! Hi Alexander Mom."

"Hello Christina, these are Alexander's sisters."

"No Mommy, these are my friends and Christina is my friend too."

Christina walks over to Little Al, hugs her and says, "I love babies! I used to be a baby. You know how old I was when I was a baby? I was one years old but I am six years old now so I am not a baby anymore."

Christina's Grandmother said, "Oh no, she is going to talk your ears off now."

I replied, "I am used to this stuff, Alexander loves to talk to me."

Big Al said,"Yeah Christina! I am five years old. We had your birthday."

I guess she had a party in the classroom.

They were so happy to see each other, they kind of vibrated. The front doors opened and off they went.

It was a great feeling to meet a child that spends time with Big Al and is so awesome.

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Week 18

Ok... This is the 3rd attempt at writing this post. I had a difficult time wrapping my head around this week's post. I had the same problem last week. My head seems to be spinning from life issues outside of my weight loss focus. These issues are not related to my weigh loss but are tied to them. The issues make me want to find comfort in food. This week I did found myself snacking a lot. I found myself snacking on food at all times of day. This snacking wouldn't be so bad it is was healthy. Chips, chocolate etc. have found their way to me. I was able to control myself enough that I did go over my weekly points but I did completely use my daily points so my intake dips into the weekly points. I can see this trend leading to over eating. Snacking is great in between meals but not the crap I have shoved into my mouth.
I have accepted that I like taking pictures of my feet.

Beside the minor food crisis this week was very productive! I run/walk for the first time in 12 years! I hope to do it again this week. The run/walk gave me a lot of motivation to a lot for physical activity. Like walking to and from work, something I NEVER do. I have gone up and down the steps 8 to 10 flights of steps at my job without a thinking twice about it. (That's about 98 -116 steps depending on which stair case I take)

Also, I reached and passed 25 lbs lost! I am only 0.9lbs way from my 10% mass lost goal. Sweet! Because I reached this goal Weight Watchers have lowered my daily points to 38. Ekk! I have to start being more creative with my power foods.

In addition, I attended the 236th USMC Ball. I am one dress smaller then last year and I felt great.

It's numbers time:

Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs BMI 40.3
This week's weight is: 242.4 lbs BMI 36.9 <--- SWEET!
Change since last week: -2.0 lbs
Change from start: -26.1 lbs <-----AWESOME!

Measurements:
Arms: 14.0 in last week: 0.0in from start: -2.5in
Hips: 46 in last week: 0.0in from start: -3.5in
Bust: 46in last week: +1.0in from start: -1.0ins
Waist: 36in last week: -2.0 in from start: -6.5in
Thigh: 24.0in last week: 0.0 in from start: -4.5in

Let's review last week's goals:
1- Go to the gym on Saturday. Nope! My hubby was at drill.
2- SLEEP!!!! I need to sleep 8 hours each day for the next 7 days. I may have to use a sleep-aid. Still not enough sleep.
4- Attempt a morning workout for 20 minute three days this week. (Monday, Wednesday & Thursday.)  Hmmm...nope... only happened once
5- Earn 5 activity points each day. Yes!

This week's goals:
1- SLEEP!! Tomorrow is going to be difficult. :-/ I am going to try to sleep well the rest of the week
2- Run/Walk one day this week
3- Earn 6 activity points each day this week
4- Stop snacking on the wrong things
5- Finally get the gym on Friday!
6- Try a new recipe
7- Lose 0.9 lbs to reach my next goal

Week 18

Ok... This is the 3rd attempt at writing this post. I had a difficult time wrapping my head around this week's post. I had the same problem last week. My head seems to be spinning from life issues outside of my weight loss focus. These issues are not related to my weigh loss but are tied to them. The issues make me want to find comfort in food. This week I did found myself snacking a lot. I found myself snacking on food at all times of day. This snacking wouldn't be so bad it is was healthy. Chips, chocolate etc. have found their way to me. I was able to control myself enough that I did go over my weekly points but I did completely use my daily points so my intake dips into the weekly points. I can see this trend leading to over eating. Snacking is great in between meals but not the crap I have shoved into my mouth.
I have accepted that I like taking pictures of my feet.

Beside the minor food crisis this week was very productive! I run/walk for the first time in 12 years! I hope to do it again this week. The run/walk gave me a lot of motivation to a lot for physical activity. Like walking to and from work, something I NEVER do. I have gone up and down the steps 8 to 10 flights of steps at my job without a thinking twice about it. (That's about 98 -116 steps depending on which stair case I take)

Also, I reached and passed 25 lbs lost! I am only 0.9lbs way from my 10% mass lost goal. Sweet! Because I reached this goal Weight Watchers have lowered my daily points to 38. Ekk! I have to start being more creative with my power foods.

In addition, I attended the 236th USMC Ball. I am one dress smaller then last year and I felt great.

It's numbers time:

Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs BMI 40.3
This week's weight is: 242.4 lbs BMI 36.9 <--- SWEET!
Change since last week: -2.0 lbs
Change from start: -26.1 lbs <-----AWESOME!

Measurements:
Arms: 14.0 in last week: 0.0in from start: -2.5in
Hips: 46 in last week: 0.0in from start: -3.5in
Bust: 46in last week: +1.0in from start: -1.0ins
Waist: 36in last week: -2.0 in from start: -6.5in
Thigh: 24.0in last week: 0.0 in from start: -4.5in

Let's review last week's goals:
1- Go to the gym on Saturday. Nope! My hubby was at drill.
2- SLEEP!!!! I need to sleep 8 hours each day for the next 7 days. I may have to use a sleep-aid. Still not enough sleep.
4- Attempt a morning workout for 20 minute three days this week. (Monday, Wednesday & Thursday.)  Hmmm...nope... only happened once
5- Earn 5 activity points each day. Yes!

This week's goals:
1- SLEEP!! Tomorrow is going to be difficult. :-/ I am going to try to sleep well the rest of the week
2- Run/Walk one day this week
3- Earn 6 activity points each day this week
4- Stop snacking on the wrong things
5- Finally get the gym on Friday!
6- Try a new recipe
7- Lose 0.9 lbs to reach my next goal

236th United States Marine Corps Birthday Ball

 Happy 236th Birthday to the men and women of the United States Marine Corps.

This year 6th Communication Battalion 4th Marine Logistic Group held their ball at The Grand Prospect Hall in Brooklyn, New York. This was my first visit to this venue but the 233th birthday ball was held here. If you remember, the 235th birthday ball was held at Ellis Island. The Grand Prospect Hall is really a grand venue but does not compare to Ellis Island.

It always great to dress up all fancy for another ball. I enjoy the change from Converse sneakers and tees. This year's ball felt like it came so quickly. My brain was focused on everything else going on in my world like: Tour de Bronx, running, career changes and of course the greatest kids in the world.

Once again it was great being out without the children. My husband and I are rarely alone. We are either with the kids together, he is with the kids without me or I am with the kids without him. Not having to worry about the daily mommy craziness is always great.

We sat at a table with my husband's Marine buddies. It's great to see him happy with his buddies, this is another thing I rarely see too.

The food was terrible! The salad tasted like fresh cut grass. It looked like it was sitting there for a long time. I ordered the chicken. BLEH! It was dry and tasteless! The rice looked like mashed potatoes! The bar drinks were great but the line to get a drink was like a cheese line! I gave up waiting on the line when my feet started to hurt in my fabulous shoes but my husband and Tailor, fellow Marine spouse, showed that have more patience and less foot pain then me. 

The ball portraits were taken by Berish Photography again. The assistant told us that the pictures will be uploaded to their site for purchase in 10 days. (That's my service announcement for those who lost their business cards last night and are googling "photographer at the USMC 235th ball The Great Prospect Hall")

This year was a little different this year, we danced! We danced to one Spanish song that I don't know and the Cha Cha Slide. My husband can not dance to the Cha Cha Slide for the life of him. One of his Marine buddies joined in on the slide where we were dancing. (We dancing next to our table.) It was fun! That Marine can dance I must say.

After a few drinks, the "Twist", a few pictures and an after party invite we headed home. It took my all for my "old" bone not to fall asleep on the way home. Yes I said old. I am feel old when I come to these USMC events because those at the same rank as my husband are way younger then us.

Until next year Marines! OORAH!

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Walking Home Again

I decided to walk home again today. This time I had Becky with me. Becky isn't a very happy walker but I had a solution for this. Scooter! I took her scooter to work with me so that we would have a ride home. I really love promoting healthy living in my kids lives.
Here are my pictures of today's walk home:

Saint Thomas Aquinas

Saint Thomas Aquinas

Sweet ride

Pose


Old Folks Apartments

I Ran

Yes... I did.

The last time I ran was about 12 years ago. I was on the CCNY volleyball team. I'll never forget running laps around the volleyball court dying to stop. I was never very good at the runner part of our training. I was a center block, I heart jumping NOT running.

So why the heck do I want to start running?

Well, after the Tour de Bronx I noticed that my normal stationary bike workout had become easier to do. My body felt like it wasn't doing anything. Knowing a lot more about my body now, I know that my body leveled off. I needed a new challenge. Since I do not have the time to hit the gym five days a week like in the summer I have to do something that is effective and well not require more then 45 minutes to complete. Running was the answer.


Blurry Start


You don't have time for the gym, when the heck are you going to run?

I figure that I will run on my husband's days off. While he and the kids are snoring away in the morning I can take a run around our neighborhood.

How early is that?

I would have to awake up and stay up at 5am to leave my home no later than 5:30am to be back but 6am. Shut the front door!

A few days ago I decided that I was going to attempt it. The first attempt failed! I turned off the alarm and round right back into the sheets. This morning I almost did the same thing. My running clothes were sitting at the end of the bed. I forced myself to grab them and go to the bathroom to get ready. I tried to talk myself out of it.

"It's chilly outside and my bed is so warm."

"Just a few more minutes."

Checking Laces
I put my clothes on grabbed my phone, my keys and I was out the door. (I couldn't find my camera in the dark, hence the blurry iPhone pictures on this post) I looked up and the sky was still dark. I turned on my 5K Runner App and began walking. I did my warm up and the app told me to start running. I ran for one minute. My heart was racing. My lungs were open with the cold air. I thought to myself why did I start this on a cold morning. I ran and walked 0.6 miles and turned back. I made it back home by 6am. I was so chilled that I did not sweat. I took ALL my clothes off and jumped back into bed to warm up. As soon as I warmed up a little I started sweating. My body made up for the lack of sweat outside.

First run/walk:
Start time: 5:35am
Outdoor Temperature: 46 degrees
Duration: 25 minutes
Distance: 1.2 miles
Almost Home!
I hope to have better pictures tomorrow.

I Ran

Yes... I did.

The last time I ran was about 12 years ago. I was on the CCNY volleyball team. I'll never forget running laps around the volleyball court dying to stop. I was never very good at the runner part of our training. I was a center block, I heart jumping NOT running.

So why the heck do I want to start running?

Well, after the Tour de Bronx I noticed that my normal stationary bike workout had become easier to do. My body felt like it wasn't doing anything. Knowing a lot more about my body now, I know that my body leveled off. I needed a new challenge. Since I do not have the time to hit the gym five days a week like in the summer I have to do something that is effective and well not require more then 45 minutes to complete. Running was the answer.


Blurry Start


You don't have time for the gym, when the heck are you going to run?

I figure that I will run on my husband's days off. While he and the kids are snoring away in the morning I can take a run around our neighborhood.

How early is that?

I would have to awake up and stay up at 5am to leave my home no later than 5:30am to be back but 6am. Shut the front door!

A few days ago I decided that I was going to attempt it. The first attempt failed! I turned off the alarm and round right back into the sheets. This morning I almost did the same thing. My running clothes were sitting at the end of the bed. I forced myself to grab them and go to the bathroom to get ready. I tried to talk myself out of it.

"It's chilly outside and my bed is so warm."

"Just a few more minutes."

Checking Laces
I put my clothes on grabbed my phone, my keys and I was out the door. (I couldn't find my camera in the dark, hence the blurry iPhone pictures on this post) I looked up and the sky was still dark. I turned on my 5K Runner App and began walking. I did my warm up and the app told me to start running. I ran for one minute. My heart was racing. My lungs were open with the cold air. I thought to myself why did I start this on a cold morning. I ran and walked 0.6 miles and turned back. I made it back home by 6am. I was so chilled that I did not sweat. I took ALL my clothes off and jumped back into bed to warm up. As soon as I warmed up a little I started sweating. My body made up for the lack of sweat outside.

First run/walk:
Start time: 5:35am
Outdoor Temperature: 46 degrees
Duration: 25 minutes
Distance: 1.2 miles
Almost Home!
I hope to have better pictures tomorrow.