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Friday, September 30, 2011

Looking

After the small gain that I had last week I have been looking deeply into what is going on in my world. I find myself becoming easily discouraged. I seem to be the only one around me trying to live healthy. In this stage in my life it is easy to be lazy. It's very easy to do nothing. Sitting back and watching TV seem great. I really do not think it's great. Maybe in the pass I thought it was great but now I hate it. When I get older moving around will get more difficult if I stay still so much. I crave going out in the world. Museums and gardens are my favorite places to visit. It's a great way to exercise with the kids without them knowing. It's just so difficult, when you want to do a bike tour and your "close" ones look at you like you are crazy. I want to start entering runs and they question you with, "Are you sure?" Yes I am sure. I want to get up and get moving. I lost so many years of my life already sitting down and doing nothing. That's how I gained 100lbs!

I need to keep going....

Looking

After the small gain that I had last week I have been looking deeply into what is going on in my world. I find myself becoming easily discouraged. I seem to be the only one around me trying to live healthy. In this stage in my life it is easy to be lazy. It's very easy to do nothing. Sitting back and watching TV seem great. I really do not think it's great. Maybe in the pass I thought it was great but now I hate it. When I get older moving around will get more difficult if I stay still so much. I crave going out in the world. Museums and gardens are my favorite places to visit. It's a great way to exercise with the kids without them knowing. It's just so difficult, when you want to do a bike tour and your "close" ones look at you like you are crazy. I want to start entering runs and they question you with, "Are you sure?" Yes I am sure. I want to get up and get moving. I lost so many years of my life already sitting down and doing nothing. That's how I gained 100lbs!

I need to keep going....

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Wordless Wednesday


- Posted from my iPhone

It's Only Been 17 Days!

How the heck am I alive right now? 17 days ago summer vacation ends and the new school year began for me and all the other that work for the Department of Education of the City of New York. I seriously feel like I am on auto-pilot now. It's not a good feeling. I feel like this month flew by.

I have this never ending list of things to do and delegated running in my head ALL the time. Let's share:
-Check book bags 1, 2 & 3 for school memos, homework and random foods. (Yes foods)
-Place 4 pull ups in book bag 3....write a note in the communication note book
-Make sure snack is in book bag 2 and homework in signed ... write a note on a post it note because the teacher does not believe in a communication note book
-Where's my phone?
-Check weather
-Find three pairs of socks...make sure socks for child #3 are long for her new legs
-Iron .....WHERE'S THE IRON?! (Dress while ironing)
-Wake up children in this order: 2, 1, 3
-Coffee pot set up and on, bagel in toaster
-Get child 2 dress and remind child 3 to wake up
-Get child 3 on potty
-Check weather
-Turn on Power Rangers for child 2 on iPod
-Must teach child 2 to turn on Power Rangers himself
-sniff...is my bagel burning? YES!
-Half dress child 3 while question child 1 about her hygiene....Tween smell funny if you don't question them
-Brush hair in this order: me, 1,2 not 3
-Brush child 3's teeth
-Work keys, house key, phone...where's my phone? Coffee, lunch, water....shoes for me.
-Text husband
-Check weather
-Jacket as needed. Blue, orange pink...Where's my sweater?
-Pile kids in the back seat.
-SLOW DOWN you are driving too fast.
-Ok child 1 let's go
-Kisses in this order: husband, 2, 3 & 1
-WORK LIST RUNS FROM 8:00AM-3:00PM
-HI child 1 kiss
-Bus...catch up on social networks
-Question husband about pick up and drop off for 2 & 3
-Homework with 2 then 1
-Dinner? Make noise in the kitchen and magically dinner appears!
-Eat
-Clean up messes from child 2&3
-Bath time 3,2,1, him & me
-Wash, clean random areas in the apartment
-Where's my phone?
-Story time
-Bedtime 2&3 then 1
-Stack clothes for tomorrow
-Mom time or sleep?

I don't think that's everything.....Help me!!!

What About The Working Parent?

Let's start off with....My THREE children attend THREE different schools. Potentially things will be like this for 2+ more years maybe even up to 6 years.

What am I to do with each school holds ALL of their parent meetings during the school day when I am at work?

With Big Bea s school it is not difficult since I am work at the school she attend. I frequently attend parent meetings as staff member. If I can not attend, I get the information from the point people before or after school.

Little Al's school knows that I am a working parent. They try to work with me. They send home information packet from the meeting. (Helen spoiled me for two years.) I sneak away from the very important activities.

Now for Big Al's school.....they are set in their ways. Parents meetings are only held at 8:45am and information will NOT be given to any parents that have not attended the meeting. (Long pause)

That does not work from me. You are pretty much telling me that if you snooze you lose right? Well what about parents like me? I am a working parent. In fact, I am a working special education parent. I DO NOT sit at home collecting a check for my child's disabilities and still not attending parent meeting. I am quickly labelled a not involved parent because I can't came to a meeting. How about you set some times in the evenings so that I CAN tell you what I have to say about our school community. This goes even for Big Bea's school. I want to be more involved but you are forcing my hands to be tied.

Big Al's school has a new principal this year. I want to be apart of the process to have her become a permanent principal. But the meeting that elects the people to be apart of the process is at, drum round please, 8:45am! I know that I am at work at that time. I've typed 10 emails in the last week screaming from the roof tops for the working parents. If fact I think before the night is over I am going to write two more.


They got me started.... Big Bea and Big Al's schools better watch out!

Sunday, September 25, 2011

"Mommy, You Are My Hero."

Sundays are always interesting in my home. Big Bea  my eldest, is with her name sakes and I am alone with my two youngest, Big and Little Al. Being alone with Big and Little Al is very stressful because I am out numbered 2 to 1. When we are not off to a museum, garden or park we are bumming around the house. I am usually cleaning up aftermath of the crazy week and Big and Little Al are enjoying being home.

Our favorite show to watch on Sundays is SpongeBob SquarePants even if it has been said that the show causes short attention spans. While watching it today Big Al started dancing in and out of the living room just like SpongeBob. The second or third time he did it he ran out of the kitchen screaming to the top of his lungs.

"Mommy, I scared!"

"What happened?"

"Mommy, I scared!"

"Did you hurt yourself?"

"No, Mommy, I scared!"

"Did you see something scary?"

"Mommy, I scared!"

At this point I am trying NOT to laugh. I knew that he was OK so this back and fourth cracked me up.

"What happened?"

"Mommy over there!"

So I get up and look in the kitchen and the kids' room. I didn't see anything that would be scary. I walked back to him.

"What was scary?"

"BIG SPIDER!!"

I go back to the kitchen and see a giant water bug walk across the kitchen floor. I wasn't shocked. Living on the floor first of my building these bugs show up every once and a while. Mostly when its been very raining. This was the second time I saw one in the last two years.


I grabbed my husband's shoe walked over to the nasty bug and CRUNCH!!


Big Al sat in the same spot for a long while. I reassured him that the "spider" was gone. He still didn't want to leave. Some more time passed and he looks up at me with tears in his eyes and says, "Mommy, You are my hero."I gave him the biggest hug. He ran off to his room.

It's nice to be a hero.

Edited: 10/4/2011.

This post was submitted to S-O-S Best of the Best, Edition 11: Family Life-Fun, Loving, and Special.

Week 12 ....bleh!

I really made it to my third month? I feel that thing were smooth sailing up until this pass week. It has been three week since I have return to work. As a said in the pass 2 weekly post, it has been very difficult to keep at work. I have no time to snack and when I do have the time I snack on the wrong things. Peanut Butter Snickers Squares are deadly. As for stress......There was a whole lot of that this week. Most of my stress came from one person. I am not going to talk about that. This is not the right venue for that. Another major stress was my Little Al got sick on Thursday. That means three hours or less of sleep for Thursday, Friday and Saturday nights. I woke up this morning I felt like someone was siting on my face. The decrease in sleep made my body go into survival mode. My body needed more food for energy.  I usually have my Weight Watchers app by my side to track everything but by the time I got to Wednesday I was COMPLETELY off program. I did not track and do not care about what I placed in my month. I only had one intentional workout and it was last Sunday at the gym. So waking up at 5 am to work out ..HA! never happened. I am very upset with myself that I fell so hard off of the program. I let another person discourage me...that person doesn't even know how their words effect me. It's time to refocus on my goal.

This week I learned that my body hates me for no working out or eating right. The junk food and extra portions has taken it's tool on my digestion system. It has become slow moving again. Not a good feeling or look. It adds inches all around but mostly in my mid-section.

Here are my monthly progress pictures and weekly numbers:



Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs
This week's weight is: 253.0 lbs
Change since last week: +3.3 lbs
Change from start: -15.1 lbs

Measurements:
Arms: 15 in last week: +0.5in from start: -1.0in
Hips: 48 in last week: +2.0in from start: -2.0in
Bust: 45in last week: 0in from start: -3ins
Waist: 40in last week: +3.0 in from start: -1.5in
Thigh: 26in last week: +2.0 in from start: -1.5in

Let's review last week's goals:

1- Earn 7 activity points each weekday and 10-11 on Saturday. I don't earn 6 points last Sunday.
2- Stay focused on WW program.  Nope
3- Attempt a morning workout each week day. Na-da!!!

This week's goals:
1- Earn 7 activity points each weekday and 10-11 on Saturday.
2- Stay focused on WW program.
3- Attempt a morning workout each week day.
4- Do some reading to get me back on track.

Week 12 ....bleh!

I really made it to my third month? I feel that thing were smooth sailing up until this pass week. It has been three week since I have return to work. As a said in the pass 2 weekly post, it has been very difficult to keep at work. I have no time to snack and when I do have the time I snack on the wrong things. Peanut Butter Snickers Squares are deadly. As for stress......There was a whole lot of that this week. Most of my stress came from one person. I am not going to talk about that. This is not the right venue for that. Another major stress was my Little Al got sick on Thursday. That means three hours or less of sleep for Thursday, Friday and Saturday nights. I woke up this morning I felt like someone was siting on my face. The decrease in sleep made my body go into survival mode. My body needed more food for energy.  I usually have my Weight Watchers app by my side to track everything but by the time I got to Wednesday I was COMPLETELY off program. I did not track and do not care about what I placed in my month. I only had one intentional workout and it was last Sunday at the gym. So waking up at 5 am to work out ..HA! never happened. I am very upset with myself that I fell so hard off of the program. I let another person discourage me...that person doesn't even know how their words effect me. It's time to refocus on my goal.

This week I learned that my body hates me for no working out or eating right. The junk food and extra portions has taken it's tool on my digestion system. It has become slow moving again. Not a good feeling or look. It adds inches all around but mostly in my mid-section.

Here are my monthly progress pictures and weekly numbers:



Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs
This week's weight is: 253.0 lbs
Change since last week: +3.3 lbs
Change from start: -15.1 lbs

Measurements:
Arms: 15 in last week: +0.5in from start: -1.0in
Hips: 48 in last week: +2.0in from start: -2.0in
Bust: 45in last week: 0in from start: -3ins
Waist: 40in last week: +3.0 in from start: -1.5in
Thigh: 26in last week: +2.0 in from start: -1.5in

Let's review last week's goals:

1- Earn 7 activity points each weekday and 10-11 on Saturday. I don't earn 6 points last Sunday.
2- Stay focused on WW program.  Nope
3- Attempt a morning workout each week day. Na-da!!!

This week's goals:
1- Earn 7 activity points each weekday and 10-11 on Saturday.
2- Stay focused on WW program.
3- Attempt a morning workout each week day.
4- Do some reading to get me back on track.

Friday, September 23, 2011

Letter to Apple

Dear Apple, My iPhone fell in the toilet yesterday. I was afraid that the only phone that I forever loved was gone forever. Thank you for creating a phone that dries well even on rainy days like today and saving me from spending money on a new iPhone. Hugs & kisses to Steve Jobs -Amy


- Posted from my iPhone

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Tour de Bronx

This weekend I signed up for Tour de Bronx. This is my first post in the series of My Journey to the Tour de Bronx. This is my FIRST bike tour. I haven't been on a regular bike in a long, long time. I get on my stationary bike almost every day in my living room....not the same as a real bike. The week leading up to the tour I have to get rolling a real bike. My schedule has prevented me from doing a lot of things but I will and must make time for some practice.

I will blog more on this topic when I get home. Lunch time blogging isn't as much fun as blogging from home.

Tour de Bronx

This weekend I signed up for Tour de Bronx. This is my first post in the series of My Journey to the Tour de Bronx. This is my FIRST bike tour. I haven't been on a regular bike in a long, long time. I get on my stationary bike almost every day in my living room....not the same as a real bike. The week leading up to the tour I have to get rolling a real bike. My schedule has prevented me from doing a lot of things but I will and must make time for some practice.

I will blog more on this topic when I get home. Lunch time blogging isn't as much fun as blogging from home.

My Expectations of You!

This school year has started off on the wrong foot with CSE. Big Al's teacher does not have any of the answers for my questions. My husband has been the go between her and I...this I do not like. She does not communicate back to me the communication notes I send to her. She does not clearly state what is and what is not to be done for homework. Last night I used my post it technic for communicate. Big Al's homework note book is full of a sea of blue. I hope she does not miss that. Big Al understands the work that is in front of him. The teacher does not understand the parent that stands behind Big Al. Once again, I have been lumped in with the special education parents that do not care what happens with thier child. I now have to teach the teacher what I real special education parent looks like.


Good thing I have a great supply of post-ins.

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Week 11

This week was a weird. I gained weight and loss weight....My diet world was completely weird. I retained a lot of water. My ankles retained most of that water. This water retention made me think about my calves and ankles earlier this year and last year. The extra water hanging around my legs made them red and gross. This week they weren't red (thank god).  Technically I had Lymhedema. "Lymphedema refers to swelling that generally occurs in one of your arms or legs. Although lymphedema tends to affect just one arm or leg, sometimes both arms or both legs may be swollen." (MayoClinic, 2011) With extreme weight gain lymphedema causes large pockets of fluid collection. This is some thing that I don't want to happen to me. I don't want the redness back either. 

I officially changed my weigh in day to Sundays. I have more time to weight, measure and record correctly. I also started doing part of my bike workout in the mornings before I start my day. I did 15 mins on Thursday and 20 mins on Friday. My goal is to fix in 30 mins. That requires me to wake up not half a sleep....I am working on that. Working out in the morning has given me more energy to start my day. Awesome!

Time for the numbers
Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs
This week's weight is: 250.0 lbs
Change since last week: -3.3 lbs
Change from start: -18.3 lbs




Weight Watcher warned me this week that I lost too much weight this week. The retaining water may have been the reason why I didn't lost any weight last week. (I know that I peed all that water out...that was not fun.)

Body Measurements:
Arms: 14.5in last week: 0in from start: -2.0in
Hips: 46in last week: 0in from start: -3.5in
Bust: 45in last week: 0in from start: -3ins
Waist: 37in last week: 0in from start: -5.5in
Thigh: 24in last week: 0in from start: -4.5in



No changes in measurements....I am fine with that.

Let's review last week's goals:
1- Log in 6-7 activity points each day and 10-11 on Saturday and Sunday. Friday was the only day I earned last then my goal.
2- Stay on program while at my second week at work. Yes! 3- Try a new breakfast recipe. Yes. Breakfast egg cupcakes.

This week's goals:
1- Earn 7 activity points each weekday and 10-11 on Saturday.
2- Stay focused on WW program.
3- Attempt a morning workout each week day.

Next week.....progress pictures.

Week 11

This week was a weird. I gained weight and loss weight....My diet world was completely weird. I retained a lot of water. My ankles retained most of that water. This water retention made me think about my calves and ankles earlier this year and last year. The extra water hanging around my legs made them red and gross. This week they weren't red (thank god).  Technically I had Lymhedema. "Lymphedema refers to swelling that generally occurs in one of your arms or legs. Although lymphedema tends to affect just one arm or leg, sometimes both arms or both legs may be swollen." (MayoClinic, 2011) With extreme weight gain lymphedema causes large pockets of fluid collection. This is some thing that I don't want to happen to me. I don't want the redness back either. 

I officially changed my weigh in day to Sundays. I have more time to weight, measure and record correctly. I also started doing part of my bike workout in the mornings before I start my day. I did 15 mins on Thursday and 20 mins on Friday. My goal is to fix in 30 mins. That requires me to wake up not half a sleep....I am working on that. Working out in the morning has given me more energy to start my day. Awesome!

Time for the numbers
Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs
This week's weight is: 250.0 lbs
Change since last week: -3.3 lbs
Change from start: -18.3 lbs




Weight Watcher warned me this week that I lost too much weight this week. The retaining water may have been the reason why I didn't lost any weight last week. (I know that I peed all that water out...that was not fun.)

Body Measurements:
Arms: 14.5in last week: 0in from start: -2.0in
Hips: 46in last week: 0in from start: -3.5in
Bust: 45in last week: 0in from start: -3ins
Waist: 37in last week: 0in from start: -5.5in
Thigh: 24in last week: 0in from start: -4.5in



No changes in measurements....I am fine with that.

Let's review last week's goals:
1- Log in 6-7 activity points each day and 10-11 on Saturday and Sunday. Friday was the only day I earned last then my goal.
2- Stay on program while at my second week at work. Yes! 3- Try a new breakfast recipe. Yes. Breakfast egg cupcakes.

This week's goals:
1- Earn 7 activity points each weekday and 10-11 on Saturday.
2- Stay focused on WW program.
3- Attempt a morning workout each week day.

Next week.....progress pictures.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Worries While At Lunch

Yesterday was a rough start to first full day of Kindergarten. There were LOTS of miscommunication! I was not informed that I was suppose to send somethings with him and Big Al was the odd man out. Would was not all fare to him. Why did five kids know what was going on and my son didn't? I don't want to share what happened in full detail.

Another thing that has me thinking is his placement. He was suppose to be in a 12:1 and he is sitting in a 12:1:1. I am filed the complaints and now we have to wait. The expectations of students in special education of so low. I am second guessing myself. Could have him being in an ITC classroom be better for him? He could have been passed to do better.

Yes I yesterday that it's the first we of school.....and it's Kindergarten.... and it's special education....but I am expecting more then what has been given to my son. The work that was given to him he mastered two years old. This teacher has no idea that I mean business. I have yet to meet her, my husband has been my mouth piece. I can't wait for this teacher to set up her levels to give my child the right work......I know she has yet to read his well put together and correct IEP that would show her that he is just plain AWESOME!

My plan for this week is to send a letter everyday. Time to be that parent! Where's my cape? (Oh wait I never put my cape away. It is always attached!)

I was spoiled by Easter Seals and Helen.

Monday, September 12, 2011

Week 10

Seriously, weigh loss is so much easier when you are at home and on "vacation." I returned back to work from summer vacation last Tuesday. It was get to be back at work but DANG IT it was so hard to stay at the pace I was on when I was home. This week I went over my daily point every day. I didn't go over my weekly points but I haven't gone over my daily points so many times in one week since July. When I got on my new scale this morning I was a little disappointed that the scale didn't show a lower number. My weight remained the same. I pulled out my measuring tape to see if there were changes there....nope. No change is better then gain.
Because of the added stress of returning to work and my son starting a new school, I have been mentally tired. I need some motivation ...seriously.
Here are the numbers...

Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs
This week's weight is: 253.1 lbs
Change since last week: 0 lbs
Change from start: -15 lbs

Body Measurements:
Arms: 14.5in last week: 0in from start: -2.0in
Hips: 46in last week: 0in from start: -3.5in
Bust: 45in last week: 0in from start: -3ins
Waist: 37in last week: 0in from start: -5.5in
Thigh: 24in last week: 0in from start: -4.5in


Let's review last week's goals:
1- Log in 60 activity points. Almost logged in 58 points ....I earned most of those points at the gym this weekend.
2- Stay on program while returning to work. Yes
3- Stay on program while celebrating Little Al's 3rd birthday this weekend. No at all!

This week's goals:
1- Log in 6-7 activity points each day and 10-11 on Saturday and Sunday.
2- Stay on program while at my second week at work.
3- Try a new breakfast recipe.

Week 10

Seriously, weigh loss is so much easier when you are at home and on "vacation." I returned back to work from summer vacation last Tuesday. It was get to be back at work but DANG IT it was so hard to stay at the pace I was on when I was home. This week I went over my daily point every day. I didn't go over my weekly points but I haven't gone over my daily points so many times in one week since July. When I got on my new scale this morning I was a little disappointed that the scale didn't show a lower number. My weight remained the same. I pulled out my measuring tape to see if there were changes there....nope. No change is better then gain.
Because of the added stress of returning to work and my son starting a new school, I have been mentally tired. I need some motivation ...seriously.
Here are the numbers...

Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs
This week's weight is: 253.1 lbs
Change since last week: 0 lbs
Change from start: -15 lbs

Body Measurements:
Arms: 14.5in last week: 0in from start: -2.0in
Hips: 46in last week: 0in from start: -3.5in
Bust: 45in last week: 0in from start: -3ins
Waist: 37in last week: 0in from start: -5.5in
Thigh: 24in last week: 0in from start: -4.5in


Let's review last week's goals:
1- Log in 60 activity points. Almost logged in 58 points ....I earned most of those points at the gym this weekend.
2- Stay on program while returning to work. Yes
3- Stay on program while celebrating Little Al's 3rd birthday this weekend. No at all!

This week's goals:
1- Log in 6-7 activity points each day and 10-11 on Saturday and Sunday.
2- Stay on program while at my second week at work.
3- Try a new breakfast recipe.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

10 Years Later

I will never forget....

I was at work. At the time my mom and I worked together.

Our school was set to have a service day from City Year & Timberland.

I remember it like it was yesterday. The guys from Timberland came rushing in the library and head to the windows. Asking me which direction our school faced. Why I asked? He said a bomb when off at the Twin Towers again. Without missing a beat I turn on the TV to see the 2nd plane hit.

My mother and I ran down the hall way to close the windows and blinds on the South end of the building. Lucky for us there were no kids in those rooms.

As the news spread like wild fire, the building became very quiet. The library was grand central. Our phone rang off the hook because staff wanted to know what I was going on.

All I wanted to do was get to my Big Bea who was 6 months old at the time. But I stood and helped my co-worker figure out how they were going to get home since the island of Manhattan was shut down. I stood and helped those from City Year and Timberland focus on the project at hand. They created a huge colorful map of the USA on the floor of the back yard. The day before they didn't know how important that map would be.

10 years later and the map is still there. It has not been re-painted in a few years. The kids that run over it now don't know how important that map is too many people.

I remember leaving work and I waited for the bus to get to my Big Bea  I waited for a minute and walked as fast as I could to her.

10 years old.....as I do every year.....I can't sleep.

Replaying what happened in my brain.

Replaying the stories my husband has told me.

I am happy that now I can't focus on my Little Al.

Tomorrow we party!

After Four Days...

After four days of work I am discouraged. My stress levels are extremely high. Stress is coming for all directions. I am trying very hard to stay to on program. Stress is my eating trigger. I head right for the yummy sugars. Even with fruits at hand I reached for the sugar when I got home from work. I need to re-group and come up with a strategy for weight loss + work.  I haven't loss hope. I know I can do this.

Also I am changing the day of my weigh ins to Sundays. I know that I well not be able to put in all the time I need to do everything correctly. So Week 10 starts tomorrow. Wish me luck.

After Four Days...

After four days of work I am discouraged. My stress levels are extremely high. Stress is coming for all directions. I am trying very hard to stay to on program. Stress is my eating trigger. I head right for the yummy sugars. Even with fruits at hand I reached for the sugar when I got home from work. I need to re-group and come up with a strategy for weight loss + work.  I haven't loss hope. I know I can do this.

Also I am changing the day of my weigh ins to Sundays. I know that I well not be able to put in all the time I need to do everything correctly. So Week 10 starts tomorrow. Wish me luck.

Little Al's Third Year

Tomorrow my Little Al turns three. The last year three years plus has been an insane roller coaster ride. My husband and I planned to try for another child in 2007. As you know we were very successful. Right after Christmas I knew that I was pregnant with my third child. They was happy and sad news at the same time. I was excited about having another child but I sad because my husband was set to go to United States Marine Corps boot camp on Jan 21.  It was set that I was going to be alone for the first 13 weeks of my pregnancy with two kids. I wrote letters to him about what I was going on with me but it wasn't enough for me. I missed him terribly.

I finally got to see him April 21 on his last day of boot camp on Parris Island, SC. I only got to see him for 10 days before he was off to his next training. I was very depressed during almost my entire pregnancy. My sister helped me with a lot of leg work. My co-workers helped me keep my spirits up and helped me count the days until he returned to me.

By the time I reached my 7th month he was clear across the country at 29 Palms USMC base in Cali. When I entrance my final weeks he was granted leave.

As of the September 4th, 2008 he was granted a leave to be home until the 26th. So I decided to go on Maternity Leave the day he touched down in NYC. Plus, I was very pregnant and work was near impossible.
7 months @ Palm Springs

September 10Th, I was my crabbiest day ever. I just wasn't in the mood for anything. So I knew that something was going to down that day. I carried the day on like normal. I picked up Becky from school and I notice it took me about 5 minutes to walk one block. Hmmmm. I kept things moving. For dinner that night I wanted diner food. So we packed up the kids and journeyed to the Pelham Bay Diner. I ordered the Lemon and Herb chicken. Yummy. As I placed my fork down when I finished my meal, I stated " We are dropped the kids off and going to the hospital tonight."

I arrived to the hospital at about 6:30 - 7pm. I was happy to hear the voice of my doctor. She checked me out and I was 4cm. She decided to induce me. Those were the greatest words ever. I am sure if she wasn't here, I would have been sent home by someone else.

My husband kept telling me that this baby better be born today. He didn't want a September 11 baby. Well we really don't get to pick and choose when she comes out. 

Just before midnight my water was broken for me. After that, bring on the contractions. They were coming fast. By 2 am was asking for epidural. I didn't get it until 3 hours later. BOOO! I almost couldn't get it because I was 7 cm before they give it to me. I love drugs. Many may disagree but that's your choice.

So I slept a good two hours. Just after 7 am, I started texting my Bestie Roxanne because Daddy was out cold. All of a sudden, pressure came out of no where. Little Al was coming and she was coming fast. I told the nurse that I was ready. She said, "Don't worry you are fine the baby is not coming yet." I told her, "Yes is she." The doctor on call wasn't even in the room when she came out. The nurses and students. They couldn't even break down the bed fast enough. All I remember was the staff screaming at me not to push and I'm screaming back at them I AM NOT PUSHING! SHE IS COMING! They had to catch her.

Once they took her away I finished texting Roxanne. (Too funny)

September 11, 2008 at 7:49 AM Little Al was born. At 8lbs 2.5 oz 19.25 ins. The smallest out of the three kids.


My Little Al has officially turned three. Her three years on this Earth has been a rough one. The first 8 months of her life she lived without her father. He was still training with the USMC. When she turned 1 year old she begun to show signs of global development delays. Now at the age of three is she relearning to walk. She has a large vocabulary but very little verbs to form sentences. She depends on her family and therapist to understand her needs and wants. She is a rough and tough little girl. She has come a long way in the last three years. She has a heart of gold engraved with the word fun. I can't wait to see what her third year brings.

Happy Birthday Little Monkey!

Saturday: Pink

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Thursday: Blue

First Day of School 2011

I am please to stay that every thing went smoothly with the kids.

Big Bea started 5th grade sleepy. She was very nervous last night so she did not sleep well and also was recovering from her allergy symptoms to my sister dogs that she had been around for two days. She was sad to find out that her group of friends that were set to be in the same class were all moved out. She has to start from fresh. At least she gets to see them during recess. Once again Big Bea surfaced all the top of her grade even with just a 3 in ELA. Because of her successes I felt her being in the general education portion of an ITC class room help her improve many skills, especially communication skills. (What's an ITC? That's a classroom with two teachers and a portion are "high" functioning special education students) During the course of the year, mostly likely, she'll be paired up with a special education students for group work and have to explain problem to the other student. This will reinforce her knowledge. You can't explain work to someone else if you don't have a great understanding of the work. I did happen to catch her having fun during the course of the day. I heart working in my kid's school.



Big Al's started to Kindergarten was interesting. I was unable to drop him off to school. Dad took over that role. He said that the staff at the new school swooped him right up and took him to the wrong class line. They noticed that he did not belong there and took him to the right line. No tears. When Dad picked him up Big Al was as happy as can be. I really seemed to enjoy his class. So far there are only 6 kids in his class....nice. When I got home from work I asked him about his day. He told me the most important things of his day. He had cereal, milk and an orange for breakfast and chicken and chocolate milk for lunch. HA! Too funny.

Little Al's first day at CPSE was like the last day of center based EI. Her teacher wrote a note about her day. Little Al walked in and played. She even played with other kids a little with cars. She ate her breakfast and lunch but had to be reminded that a spoon needed to be used. She also got her new legs today. YAY! It turns out the shoes that she wore to school today were the perfect fit for her new legs.

Great success for the first day. No tears all around. Bring on the rest of the year!!

PS: No pictures of Little Al today...she won't stay still for a picture.

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Starting....

Big Bea is starting 5th grade.

Big Al is starting CSE Kindergarten.

Little Al is starting CPSE.

They all started their new adventures tomorrow. I can't wait to see what I school year has to bring.

I see many cupcakes in my future.

Wordless Wednesday: Yellow

My Girls @ The Pier

That's one tall 5 year old

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Monday, September 5, 2011

Monday: Red




Catus Flower @ Wave Hill




Fern @ Wave Hill




American Red Cross Ad @ Intrepid

Week Nine

I have officially reached and passed my first goal!! AWESOME!! My first goal was to lose 5% of my initial body mass. 5% of my initial body mass is 13.5 lbs. I am happy to said that I have lost 15 pounds!! I weighed myself earlier then my WW day. I stepped on the scale on Saturday and saw that it was official. So as a reward I chopped my hair off. YAY!! It's going to be so awesome to tell my co-workers (who don't have Facebook) That I lost 15 pounds during summer vacation. I feel successful!
Here are the numbers...

Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs
This week's weight is: 253.1 lbs
Change since last week: -2.2 lbs
Change from start: -15 lbs (OH YEAH!!)

Body Measurements:
Arms: 14.5in last week: +.25in from start: -2.0in
Hips: 46in last week: 0in from start: -3.5in
Bust: 45in last week: 0in from start: -3ins
Waist: 37in last week: +1in from start: -5.5in
Thigh: 24in last week: -1in from start: -4.5in


Let's review last week's goals:

1- Log in at least 60 activity points. I logged 53 activity points. I am getting closer to reaching 60 points.
2- Allow myself one trip to D&D but no donuts. No D&D this week. However, I did go to Mickey D's twice. I stopped myself from sabotaging my program and I put down the fries and sugary drink.
3- Try a new recipe. Nope
4- Reach my 5% goal! HELLO!!!
5- Review Fooducate and 80 Bites. Fooducate yes 80 bites no.

This week's goals:
1- Log in 60 activity points.
2- Stay on program while returning to work.
3- Stay on program while celebrating Little Al's 3rd birthday this weekend.

Week Nine

I have officially reached and passed my first goal!! AWESOME!! My first goal was to lose 5% of my initial body mass. 5% of my initial body mass is 13.5 lbs. I am happy to said that I have lost 15 pounds!! I weighed myself earlier then my WW day. I stepped on the scale on Saturday and saw that it was official. So as a reward I chopped my hair off. YAY!! It's going to be so awesome to tell my co-workers (who don't have Facebook) That I lost 15 pounds during summer vacation. I feel successful!
 
Here are the numbers...

Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs
This week's weight is: 253.1 lbs
Change since last week: -2.2 lbs
Change from start: -15 lbs (OH YEAH!!)

Body Measurements:
Arms: 14.5in last week: +.25in from start: -2.0in
Hips: 46in last week: 0in from start: -3.5in
Bust: 45in last week: 0in from start: -3ins
Waist: 37in last week: +1in from start: -5.5in
Thigh: 24in last week: -1in from start: -4.5in


Let's review last week's goals:

1- Log in at least 60 activity points. I logged 53 activity points. I am getting closer to reaching 60 points.
2- Allow myself one trip to D&D but no donuts. No D&D this week. However, I did go to Mickey D's twice. I stopped myself from sabotaging my program and I put down the fries and sugary drink.
3- Try a new recipe. Nope
4- Reach my 5% goal! HELLO!!!
5- Review Fooducate and 80 Bites. Fooducate yes 80 bites no.

This week's goals:
1- Log in 60 activity points.
2- Stay on program while returning to work.
3- Stay on program while celebrating Little Al's 3rd birthday this weekend.

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Sunday: White, Brown and Black




White Flower & Ants @ Wave Hill




Vines @ NYBG



Water @ NYBG

When You Mix Red and Yellow....It Makes Orange... ALRIGHT!

It's time for another week of color. This week of color is for:
-The end of summer vacation
-The beginning of the school year and LOT of changes for the Big and Little Al
-Focused on my weight loss jounrey. (Changing Amy)
-For being plain AWESOME!

I am going to be posting pictures this week with color themes....here is the break down for the week.


Sunday - White, Black and Brown
Monday - Red
Tuesday -Green
Wednesday - Yellow
Thursday - Blue & Purple
Friday- Orange
Saturday -Pink
Feel free to join in on the fun and post to your blog or social network of choice.

Amy Reviews: Fooducate App For iPhone.

On one of my app download frenzies, I download Fooducate. This app helps you make better decisions when your are buying groceries. It uses the built in camera to scan the UPC labels for the products you want to learn more about. The app tells you if the product is good for you or bad. It also gives you the WW point values, a feature I love. This app opened my eyes to a lot of the things I didn't know about some of the foods I have in my kitchen. Another feature I like is the Alternatives tab. The app gives you healthier alternatives to the product. I really enjoying scanning the items in my kitchen but Foodcute's database did not have a lot of the foods I buy. They give you the option to sent them the information of the products to update their database but they warn you that it will take a long time to include that food. This app has become very popular so they are back logged.  

 I rate this app 4 out of 5 on the Amy Scale.

Download it for iPhone and Andorid.

Amy Reviews: Fooducate App For iPhone.

On one of my app download frenzies, I download Fooducate. This app helps you make better decisions when your are buying groceries. It uses the built in camera to scan the UPC labels for the products you want to learn more about. The app tells you if the product is good for you or bad. It also gives you the WW point values, a feature I love. This app opened my eyes to a lot of the things I didn't know about some of the foods I have in my kitchen. Another feature I like is the Alternatives tab. The app gives you healthier alternatives to the product. I really enjoying scanning the items in my kitchen but Foodcute's database did not have a lot of the foods I buy. They give you the option to sent them the information of the products to update their database but they warn you that it will take a long time to include that food. This app has become very popular so they are back logged.  

 I rate this app 4 out of 5 on the Amy Scale.

Download it for iPhone and Andorid.

Apple Picking We Shall Go!

We took the kiddies apple picking. We picked up Big Bea from her father's house and headed due north to Wilkens Farm in Yorktown Heights. This was a great trip for the kiddies. As soon as we turned into the farm's driveway/bridge, Little Al immediately shouted, "FARM" when she saw the red barn on the left. This was the first time we visited on the first weekend of apple season. There were very few people there. It was more enjoyable with less people. That means less waiting. We walked to the apple orchard. Right away Little Aly knew what to do. She pulled apples right off the low trees and put them in the bushel. I was so happy to see that she completely understood what needed to be done. Watch out for the poison ivy! Once we filled our bushel we jumped on to the back of a tractor to our car for some lunch. The last time I rode any where near a tractor I was in Kindergarten in Brooklyn.

Now what am I going to do with 22lbs of apples. HA!

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Welcome to CPSE Little Al

Finally!!!! We have an IEP. Not just any type of IEP.....A 12-month IEP. YAY!! I have stressed over not having a CPSE IEP since May. I have not slept well for the last three weeks knowing that summer session had ended and I didn't have an IEP or a date for a meeting.

Today I got a call asking if I could have the IEP meeting today......yes today. I was in shock! I have waited and waited. Re-opened her CPSE case twice and I got a phone call for a last minute meeting. I had the last 65 days off from school and now I have my meeting.

So I quickly called my Service Coordinator...she didn't pick up phone so I knew she was out on the field. I had to head to this meeting with no back up and two kids. I do my best work without them. I had no help and no choice.

As we walked to 1 Fordham Plaza, I get more and more nervous. I hate that my Little Al's destiny is in the hands of paper pushers and all I can do is fight. Fight to the bitter end.

I get there before the school representative. I started mentally reviewing what is going on with Little Al and all the things that needs to be address. They appear and the rep hands me the copies of the evaluations that were done 7/22. (Yeah today is 9/1...Why the long wait?) The admin and rep go in the office while I am still waiting. They were setting up the computerized portion of the IEP. Cool beans. They gives me enough time to read through the evaluations and memorize the recommended service from each evaluator.
-small class setting
-OT
-Speech
-PT
-Counseling

ABA was not recommended...strange but ok...I got it.

Time to go in.

Keeping the kids quiet and out of the way was very stressful. Big Al wanted to talked to everyone and show them his Power Ranger. We calmed him done and got to work.

We had some back and forth between the three of us about health insurance, ABA programming, diagnosis and the right paperwork, etc..A topics that I got very upset over. I was offer an ABA program in Manhattan. 23rd street. (Yeah I am sending my 3 years daughter on a bus down the FDR five days a week..no thanks) I never seem to have the right paperwork in the eyes of Department of Education. I am not going to get into great detail with that portion of the meeting. There was a lot of talking and not much progress was made. Because of my "lack" of paperwork the label of Autism was not in the cards. My tension grew.

Soap box time: Not everyone has Medicaid that pays for everything. I work to pay my bills and educational loans and don't sit back and collect a check for my children disabilities like 99% of the parents in Special Education programs. I am not a Welfare career mom. (99% may not be right but it feels like it. Also, there are Moms and Dads that genuinely stay at home and do not abuse the system. I praise them for doing the right thing.) 

I was asked how I wanted Little Aly to be labelled. I agreed to "Pre-school student with disabilities", the same as her brother.

I was giving the run down of the services that was going to be offered:
-Small class setting 8:1:2 full day five days a week
-OT 2x30
-PT 2x30
-SLT 2x3
Do you agree to that?

 "No.While I was waiting I read in the Psychology Evaluation that counseling with recommended." My voice is shaky at this point.

Wide eyes & silence

"Well with the increase from half day to full day and smaller class setting well wait and see if she really needs it."

"Well she is quick tempered and gives the staff hard time. She also does not play with kids in her class. She also hits her brother and we don't need her to start hitting kids in her class room."

"Well.....what do you want to do?"

"Ahhh....Let me see.....Yeah."

"Thank you."

I felt the ton of bricks on my back grow. I felt like I was the only one in this world fighting for my daughter. The sad fact is...I am the only fighting this fight. I felt the stress of other things going on in my life that I don't blog about. I burst into tears. I told the ladies in the room that the stress of what's going on all around has got me to my limit. I have a lot on my plate with no help what so ever. I explained to them some of my home situation. They replied that one of them is going to start crying.

I never cry at these things. I usually cry when I am blogging about it.

So 9 days before Little Aly ages out of Early Intervention I finally get my 12 month CPSE IEP.

When I went home and combed through all of the page 6s aka the goals, I noticed that counseling goals was in with all the another goals for the all other related services. So she was approving these goals but not the related service to go with them. Hmmmmm.....someone needs to actually read the IEP before approving it. I normally read the IEP in the meeting but I was too emotional to read. Plus I knew the goal before hand. Her IEP is identical to brother's IEP at 3 years old.

Now time to call the bus company to make sure she is on that bus on the 8th.

PS. My favorite goal is on page 6A4. Improving toileting skills. OH YEAH!!! Let the adventure BEGIN!!