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Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Week Eight

I am proud to say that I have made to the two month mark. I am amazed that I was able to stay on program for so long. If you look at the post earlier this year you’ll see that I was only on a program for a short period of time and promise to myself that I was going to start again and again. I am pleased with my results so far. I am able to fit in a few jean capris that I purchased a few years ago and never fit. No, I didn’t just return it. When I mail order stuff I HATE the return progress. If I REALLY don’t fit in someone I got I usually find someone that it fits. Some of the stuff I hold on because they are just too good to let go and I say to myself, “I will fit in that soon….I hope.” Well it finally happened. As I was putting clothes in my dress the capris caught my eye. I pulled them out and trying them on. How awesome! They are a dark enough wash that I can wear them after Labor Day. So for my co-worker reader look out for them.

Along with the WW Mobile app, I used Target Weight for Adult app for iPhone by Tactio Software International. Target Weight is an app that helps you track your weight daily. Most weight-loss program do not encourage daily weigh in. Weight Watchers encourages weekly weigh ins and some doctors even suggest less than that. I’ve read that some doctors of severely obese individuals, like myself, suggest daily weigh ins to learn most about how their bodies loses and gains weight. (Pssst, I don’t think I am severely obese. The numbers just say that I am. When I think of someone that is severely obese I think of those shows of people that can’t get out of bed or walk up and down steps. An adult with a BMI greater than 35 is considered severely obese. Moving on…) After using this program for the last week I enjoyed checking in on what is going on with my body during the week. It did make me less nervous about my Monday morning weigh in for WW. I was more aware of the changes in weight.



The features of the app include:
-Private tracking. No you can’t post your weight to Facebook…Quit being lazy and type of out yourself.
-Personal Dashboard. Goal, days to go, height, weight, BMI and a small chart is here. You can touch any of “buttons” and it takes to charts or you can update your numbers.
-BMI Chart. This is the coolest BMI chart I’ve seen. I just it’s the color coding. It shows you were you are and your target BMI.
-Weight Chart. For those visual people, the weight chart tracks your daily weight and places on a pretty line graph.

I enjoyed using this app this week and I plan on using it until I learn more about how my body loses weight and how it behaves during that time of the month. I am giving this app 5 out of 5 on the Amy Scale. Pretty colors!


Here are the numbers...

Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs
This week's weight is: 255.3 lbs
Change since last week: -2.0 lbs
Change from start: -12.8 lbs

Body Measurements:
Arms: 14.25in last week: -.75in from start: -2.25in
Hips: 46in last week: -1in from start: -3.5in
Bust: 45in last week: -1in from start: -3ins
Waist: 36in last week: -2in from start: -6.5in
Thigh: 25in last week: -0in from start: -3.5in

I am 0.6lbs away from my initial goal of 5% of my start weight. I think if I go get a haircut I would reach that goal!

Let's review last week's goals:
1- Log in at least 60 activity points. I only logged 41 activity points. Week by week I am slowing down and I don’t like that.
2- Start using the WW online community. Done I made a handful of friends.
3-Allow myself one trip to D&D but no donuts. Yes.. I heart D&D. No donuts!
4-Try a new recipe. Nope
5- Review three of the fitness app I have been using and discovered. I'll be using the following app for the next five days: Weight Watchers, Target Weight for Adults and Fooducate. I reviewed WW and reviewed Target Weight above.


This week's goals:
1- Log in at least 60 activity points.
2- Allow myself one trip to D&D but no donuts.
3- Try a new recipe.
4- Reach my 5% goal!
5- Review Fooducate and 80 Bites

Here are my progress pictures:
There wasn't too much change from week four. My clothes are beginning to fit better.

Week Eight

I am proud to say that I have made to the two month mark. I am amazed that I was able to stay on program for so long. If you look at the post earlier this year you’ll see that I was only on a program for a short period of time and promise to myself that I was going to start again and again. I am pleased with my results so far. I am able to fit in a few jean capris that I purchased a few years ago and never fit. No, I didn’t just return it. When I mail order stuff I HATE the return progress. If I REALLY don’t fit in someone I got I usually find someone that it fits. Some of the stuff I hold on because they are just too good to let go and I say to myself, “I will fit in that soon….I hope.” Well it finally happened. As I was putting clothes in my dress the capris caught my eye. I pulled them out and trying them on. How awesome! They are a dark enough wash that I can wear them after Labor Day. So for my co-worker reader look out for them.

Along with the WW Mobile app, I used Target Weight for Adult app for iPhone by Tactio Software International. Target Weight is an app that helps you track your weight daily. Most weight-loss program do not encourage daily weigh in. Weight Watchers encourages weekly weigh ins and some doctors even suggest less than that. I’ve read that some doctors of severely obese individuals, like myself, suggest daily weigh ins to learn most about how their bodies loses and gains weight. (Pssst, I don’t think I am severely obese. The numbers just say that I am. When I think of someone that is severely obese I think of those shows of people that can’t get out of bed or walk up and down steps. An adult with a BMI greater than 35 is considered severely obese. Moving on…) After using this program for the last week I enjoyed checking in on what is going on with my body during the week. It did make me less nervous about my Monday morning weigh in for WW. I was more aware of the changes in weight.



The features of the app include:
-Private tracking. No you can’t post your weight to Facebook…Quit being lazy and type of out yourself.
-Personal Dashboard. Goal, days to go, height, weight, BMI and a small chart is here. You can touch any of “buttons” and it takes to charts or you can update your numbers.
-BMI Chart. This is the coolest BMI chart I’ve seen. I just it’s the color coding. It shows you were you are and your target BMI.
-Weight Chart. For those visual people, the weight chart tracks your daily weight and places on a pretty line graph.

I enjoyed using this app this week and I plan on using it until I learn more about how my body loses weight and how it behaves during that time of the month. I am giving this app 5 out of 5 on the Amy Scale. Pretty colors!


Here are the numbers...

Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs
This week's weight is: 255.3 lbs
Change since last week: -2.0 lbs
Change from start: -12.8 lbs

Body Measurements:
Arms: 14.25in last week: -.75in from start: -2.25in
Hips: 46in last week: -1in from start: -3.5in
Bust: 45in last week: -1in from start: -3ins
Waist: 36in last week: -2in from start: -6.5in
Thigh: 25in last week: -0in from start: -3.5in

I am 0.6lbs away from my initial goal of 5% of my start weight. I think if I go get a haircut I would reach that goal!

Let's review last week's goals:
1- Log in at least 60 activity points. I only logged 41 activity points. Week by week I am slowing down and I don’t like that.
2- Start using the WW online community. Done I made a handful of friends.
3-Allow myself one trip to D&D but no donuts. Yes.. I heart D&D. No donuts!
4-Try a new recipe. Nope
5- Review three of the fitness app I have been using and discovered. I'll be using the following app for the next five days: Weight Watchers, Target Weight for Adults and Fooducate. I reviewed WW and reviewed Target Weight above.


This week's goals:
1- Log in at least 60 activity points.
2- Allow myself one trip to D&D but no donuts.
3- Try a new recipe.
4- Reach my 5% goal!
5- Review Fooducate and 80 Bites

Here are my progress pictures:
There wasn't too much change from week four. My clothes are beginning to fit better.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Amy Reviews: Weight Watcher Mobile iPhone App

 Since I join Weight Watcher on Jan 30, 2011 I had the Weight Watcher Mobile app downloaded on my iPhone. When I started WW I wasn't really serious about it. I was brain washed my Jennifer Hudson's successful and signed up. I learned how to use some of the online tools and the iPhone app.

When you are a member of WW the app has all the features available to use. You are able to:
-Track PointsPlus values for food and activity and use the PointsPlus calculate
-Search the WW food database
-Track your weight and follow your progress
-Set reminders
-Daily Health Checks
-Unlock all Cheat Sheets

Non- members don't have access to the below feature but can used the following feature that member can used too:
-See featured daily recipe
-Create shopping lists
-Limited Cheat Sheets access
-Read Success Stories
-Find a WW meeting
-Connect with WW friends.

The app is very easy simple to use. The menus are very interesting and tasty. I am able to track my foods before and while I am eating. I am able to pull out my phone if I have a question about how many points a food is. I don't have to wait to have computer access. I have been able to use this app every day since I restarted WW in July without getting discouraged. However, it does have its limits even for members. You can not track your measurements on the app. This would be very helpful since the WW online tracker runs on flash I can not use my mobile web browser on my iPhone to track the measurements. I also can't access the community message boards.

Because of the ease of access and the need for more development, I am giving this app a 3 out of 5 on the Amy Scale.


Amy Reviews: Weight Watcher Mobile iPhone App

 Since I join Weight Watcher on Jan 30, 2011 I had the Weight Watcher Mobile app downloaded on my iPhone. When I started WW I wasn't really serious about it. I was brain washed my Jennifer Hudson's successful and signed up. I learned how to use some of the online tools and the iPhone app.

When you are a member of WW the app has all the features available to use. You are able to:
-Track PointsPlus values for food and activity and use the PointsPlus calculate
-Search the WW food database
-Track your weight and follow your progress
-Set reminders
-Daily Health Checks
-Unlock all Cheat Sheets

Non- members don't have access to the below feature but can used the following feature that member can used too:
-See featured daily recipe
-Create shopping lists
-Limited Cheat Sheets access
-Read Success Stories
-Find a WW meeting
-Connect with WW friends.

The app is very easy simple to use. The menus are very interesting and tasty. I am able to track my foods before and while I am eating. I am able to pull out my phone if I have a question about how many points a food is. I don't have to wait to have computer access. I have been able to use this app every day since I restarted WW in July without getting discouraged. However, it does have its limits even for members. You can not track your measurements on the app. This would be very helpful since the WW online tracker runs on flash I can not use my mobile web browser on my iPhone to track the measurements. I also can't access the community message boards.

Because of the ease of access and the need for more development, I am giving this app a 3 out of 5 on the Amy Scale.


Thursday, August 25, 2011

When You Decide Not To Have Anymore Children

Today's blog post was prompted by two things.
1-The arrival of a great co-worker's twins.
2- A conversation with Little Al's ABA instructor.

When did you decide not to continue having children?

I love children. I love babies. I actually would love to have another child. I made the decision not to have anymore when Little Al started the early intervention progress. I knew then that the road a head was not going to be an easy one and I did not want to do it a third time.

Having children is not easy. In fact some people make it look easy. Having special needs children makes things even more difficult. The ridiculous about of paper work and doctors visits. Having to hunt people down at the district. Worrying about what the future holds is the biggest issues for me. It has caused A LOT of sleepless nights. I have learned so much about Special Education that I never thought that I would ever know. I really don't mine sharing this information with other. I enjoy help others.

For the first five year of Big Bea s life we lived this a "normal" family. No worries about developmental milestones. I mean we did have worries about things like eczema but nothing like not walking. I kind of miss those days where I didn't have to wait for a school bus or a therapist. We could go where the wind takes us. Now, everything is on a schedule. Everything is planned out down to the minute. We are limited in time and places. "We can't stay too long...you have school tomorrow ...or we have ABA later."

Actually, our family is pretty lucky. How so? Well things could be a lot worst. The kids could be non-verbal or could be in a wheelchair or have cancer.

Adding another child to the mix will make these much more stressful and personally I think it would be insane. I praise those brave soul willing to try again for other child but there just no way I can do it mentally again. I don't think I'll have enough fight left in me.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

A Day At The Pool With Big Al

Thank you Mother Nature for not raining on our swimming lesson today. Yes it was chilly on our way to the pool but the sun helped keep us warm. Big Bea s lesson was the coolest. The pool was caught in the shadow of the tall building on E180st. She was freezing by the end of her lesson. She sat in the sun and warmer right up. By the time it was the tots lesson the shadow moved and we had a sunny pool. My sister join in for this lesson. (If you remember our first lesson, One child for one adult.)  My sister complain about the water being too cold. Her "pork chops" were too cold. She had Little Al and I had Big Al.

Little Al had lots of fun with her Titi. Too baby Titi was just as scared as her of the water. I guess it worked out. Little Al proclaimed that she was "swimming" and "cold". My sister over came some water fears and dunked her and Little Al into the water. Little Al did not like that one bit.

Oh boy...Why did the boy pick me? He fought me the whole way. When it was time to dunk his entire head in the water....he shows off his language skills."Mommy no! Stop it! HELP ME! Get off of me! HELP ME! HELP ME!".....to the top of lungs. He pushed and kicked me. He tried to take me down. He forgot that I was bigger then him. I pulled him back in the pool. The instructors laughed hard. Big Al's voice echoed off the buildings.

Oh man this boy needs more lesson. There is only one lesson left and it's going to rain.

Her New Legs are on The WAY!!

March 1, 2011 I first posted about Little Al's New Legs.
March 7, 2011 posted about why she needed Orthotic Devices.
July 9, 2011 posted about my dealings with Early Intervention Assistive Technology .

Today was a big day in new legs history. She was re-fitted! FINALLY! Finally, the guys at Progressive Orthotics & Prosthetics were given the ok by Assistive Technology to create her $2,728.16 new legs. Her legs will be ready next week. She gets to wear them on the first day of school. Because Assistive Technology took so long to get things together Little Al's calf have been over used and too large for a child her age, weight and height. Her big toe nail have flatten out and she falls A LOT! With these new legs and physical therapy she will relearn how to walk. It is going to hurt. Mommy is here for her. We are taking on this journey together!


Monday, August 22, 2011

Week Seven

I am trying to keep my motivation going. This week was very difficult. I had to deal with A LOT of stress. It wholeheartedly believe that it was unnecessary stress. As a result of this stress I did not work out as much as I should have. I averaged only 5-8 activity points for the days that I worked out. I was able to get in 45 activity points for the week. I did manage to only used 3 of my weekly points. YAY!! I am very proud of myself. I did not let my stress tempt me to over eat. I turned to cleaning. It kept my hands busy. I do feel my body slowing down since the kids summer session ended. I haven't been able to workout the same length of time that I did at the gym at home.

Here are the numbers...

Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs
This week's weight is: 257.3 lbs
Change since last week: -0.4 lbs
Change from start: -10.8 lbs

Body Measurements:
Arms: 14.5in  last week: -.5in from start: -2in
Hips: 47in last week: -1.5in from start: -2.5in
Bust: 46in last week: 0in from start: -2ins
Waist: 38in last week: 0in from start: -4.5in
Thigh: 25in last week: -1in from start: -3.5in

I am 2.6 lbs away from my initial goal of 5% of my start weight. The amount of weight I lost was small but my body is still changing.


Let's review last week's goals:
1- Log in at least 60 activity points. Logged only 45 activity points
2- Make time to go to the gym at least 3 times. Once!
3- Start using the WW online community. Nope
4- Allow myself one trip to D&D but no donuts. Yes.. and it was so yummy. No donuts.
This week's goals:
1- Log in at least 60 activity points.
2- Start using the WW online community.
3-Allow myself one trip to D&D but no donuts.
4-Try a new recipe
5- Review three of the fitness app I have been using and discovered. I'll be using the following app for the next five days: Weight Watchers, Target Weight for Adults and Fooducate.

Week Seven

I am trying to keep my motivation going. This week was very difficult. I had to deal with A LOT of stress. It wholeheartedly believe that it was unnecessary stress. As a result of this stress I did not work out as much as I should have. I averaged only 5-8 activity points for the days that I worked out. I was able to get in 45 activity points for the week. I did manage to only used 3 of my weekly points. YAY!! I am very proud of myself. I did not let my stress tempt me to over eat. I turned to cleaning. It kept my hands busy. I do feel my body slowing down since the kids summer session ended. I haven't been able to workout the same length of time that I did at the gym at home.

Here are the numbers...

Weight:
Start weight: 268.5 lbs
This week's weight is: 257.3 lbs
Change since last week: -0.4 lbs
Change from start: -10.8 lbs

Body Measurements:
Arms: 14.5in  last week: -.5in from start: -2in
Hips: 47in last week: -1.5in from start: -2.5in
Bust: 46in last week: 0in from start: -2ins
Waist: 38in last week: 0in from start: -4.5in
Thigh: 25in last week: -1in from start: -3.5in

I am 2.6 lbs away from my initial goal of 5% of my start weight. The amount of weight I lost was small but my body is still changing.


Let's review last week's goals:
1- Log in at least 60 activity points. Logged only 45 activity points
2- Make time to go to the gym at least 3 times. Once!
3- Start using the WW online community. Nope
4- Allow myself one trip to D&D but no donuts. Yes.. and it was so yummy. No donuts.
This week's goals:
1- Log in at least 60 activity points.
2- Start using the WW online community.
3-Allow myself one trip to D&D but no donuts.
4-Try a new recipe
5- Review three of the fitness app I have been using and discovered. I'll be using the following app for the next five days: Weight Watchers, Target Weight for Adults and Fooducate.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Wave Hill

Finally a day with no rain in sight. We took this chance to go to Wave Hill. Wave Hill is located deep in Riverdale. (Yes Riverdale is apart of the Bronx.) You can get to Wave Hill via shuttle bus, if you are taking public transportation. The "free van service between the front gate and the Metro-North Railroad Riverdale station and the terminus of the #1 subway train at West 242nd Street." (Wave Hill, 2011) Lucky for us Daddy drove us to our destination. Yay!


Wave hill isn't as big as NYBG but it is just as breathe taking. The views of New Jersey are amazing. All my kids are science kids. Big & Little Al are always in awe when they see plant life. Touching is not allowed at the garden but they tried hard to touch.

We made it in time for Family Art Project in the Ecology Building. The project was to create paper fish on a fishing pole. Big Al was ready to let his creative juice flow. Little Al was very interested in pasting circle on paper. I created Little's fish for her. It was a lot of stuff. Every time I do any arts and crafts project it reminds me of Girl Scouts.

We walked the grounds just enough to get the Big & Little tried but not insanely tired. Just enough that Big Al was requesting snacks. 

Our visit to the garden really helped mellow out the kids. It's been one week such summer session has been over. I try my hardest to keep them busy at home. Nothing like a trip to nature to help with their sensory and physical development. The hills and rock steps help them use some muscle that aren't normally used at home. The quiet helped them focus on the plants and other surroundings.

Our visit was just lovely.

Friday, August 19, 2011

Measuring Up...or Down

I did not start taking measuring of myself until I was four week into my journey. I wish I had done it from the start. It is very motivation to wrap the measuring tape around you and you see a smaller number each time. Even when the number on the scale does not move as much as you want, the numbers are on the tape do. I never really had to measure myself. In fact, before a few weeks ago I don't ever remember measuring myself. I had to do some googling to figure out how to measure so I can fill in my WW chart.

-Arm: measured between the shoulder and elbow with your arm at your side
-Abdomen: measured at the level of your belly button (Not listed on WW, just go to know)
-Waist: measured at the narrowest point above your belly button, but below your breast bone
-Hips: measured at the widest point of the hip or buttock region
-Thigh: measured at the maximal girth of the thigh
-Bust: measured at the widest point of your breast.


Keep this in mind when you are measuring:
-Make sure the measuring tape is even. No curling.
-Measure directly against the skin if possible
-Make sure the tape is comfortable not tight
-Measure between meals

So now let's compare Week 4 and Week 6.

Week 4:
Arms: 16.5 in
Hips: 49.5 in
Bust: 48 in
Waist: 42.5 in
Thighs: 28.5 in

Week 6:
Arms: 16 in
Hips: 48.5 in
Bust: 48 in
Waist: 38 in
Thighs: 26 in

Not bad for two weeks. Now I wonder what my start measurements were. 

The belt in the picture is on a hole that I made a while back. I am sure not sure if I want to make another hole. Oh well...I think it's time for a new belt.

Measuring Up...or Down

I did not start taking measuring of myself until I was four week into my journey. I wish I had done it from the start. It is very motivation to wrap the measuring tape around you and you see a smaller number each time. Even when the number on the scale does not move as much as you want, the numbers are on the tape do. I never really had to measure myself. In fact, before a few weeks ago I don't ever remember measuring myself. I had to do some googling to figure out how to measure so I can fill in my WW chart.

-Arm: measured between the shoulder and elbow with your arm at your side
-Abdomen: measured at the level of your belly button (Not listed on WW, just go to know)
-Waist: measured at the narrowest point above your belly button, but below your breast bone
-Hips: measured at the widest point of the hip or buttock region
-Thigh: measured at the maximal girth of the thigh
-Bust: measured at the widest point of your breast.


Keep this in mind when you are measuring:
-Make sure the measuring tape is even. No curling.
-Measure directly against the skin if possible
-Make sure the tape is comfortable not tight
-Measure between meals

So now let's compare Week 4 and Week 6.

Week 4:
Arms: 16.5 in
Hips: 49.5 in
Bust: 48 in
Waist: 42.5 in
Thighs: 28.5 in

Week 6:
Arms: 16 in
Hips: 48.5 in
Bust: 48 in
Waist: 38 in
Thighs: 26 in

Not bad for two weeks. Now I wonder what my start measurements were. 

The belt in the picture is on a hole that I made a while back. I am sure not sure if I want to make another hole. Oh well...I think it's time for a new belt.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Go Big Bea!

My amazing genius killed the 4th grade NYS ELA, Math and Science exams. You might remember that last year she scored amazingly high of her 3rd grade test. This year we all excepted a great performance and she stood up to the challenge. You can't really compare the tests of 3rd and 4th because they are too very different animals. The 4th grade test includes a writing piece and a lot more reading.

Let's review the Levels Break Down

Level 1: Below Standard

Level 2: Meets Basic Standard
Level 3: Meets Proficiency Standard
Level 4: Exceeds Proficiency Standard

Big Bea got....Drum roll please....

ELA : Level 3
Math: Level 4
Science: Level 4

I am so proud of her.

ROCK ON!!

Wordless Wednesdays

Winner of Science Jeopardy
I am a genius...Word!

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Life of a Fat Girl

Usually when I tell someone how much I weigh they say no way. They are either being really nice, they are truly shocked about the number or they don't believe me. My weight has been an issue (mostly in my brain) most of my life.

A few days ago I had a conversation with my husband about my weight loss. He is very proud of me. I told him that I am proud of me too. He said that it must be physically demanding to work out so much. I told him there is nothing physically hard about exercising, it's all mental for me. I have to gear myself up to work out. I have to plan when and how much I am going to work out. I also have to get pass the fat girl way of thinking. Being overweight or obese is something that my husband will never understand. He has always been in his ideal weight range. Heck when he return from Marine Corp boot camp he had 1% body fat. (Grrrr)

I didn't wake up one day thinking like a fat girl. I can remember thinking like a fat girl in middle school. I always worn huge clothing, that way no one would see my figure. I never ever got tease about being fat. In fact, I never really got tensed. By the age of 12, I thought I was gross. No es bueno. This line of thinking was a result of being told that I was so chucky. Yeah, anyone would look fat next to my skinny sister when we were growing up. My parents, especially my grandmother would make me aware of the weight difference between my sister and I. (Come one who really cares when you are 7 or 8) Because of this stigma that I am the fat one, I ate the part.

By the time I reached high school the fat girl way of thinking really set in. Going to Jane Addams help me with that. In JA the girls out numbered the boys 4 to 1. So it was easy for me to blend into the crowd of girls and not be noticed. I was always afraid that I wasn't going to fit in the old school benches we used to have as seats and desk. When I joined the volleyball and softball, the issued bottoms did not fit correctly. I was also afraid that someone would call me fat. It wasn't until I reached the end of my Junior year where I started to crack that way of thinking. My first boyfriend, Floe, helped me realized that I am not this huge image that I had in my brain. So I started to change what a worn just a little. I worn the right sized pants and one size larger shirts. Eventually I worn the right size. This change gained a lot of attention from the boys....honestly I liked it.

After high school my life was a roller coaster ride. I became a complete emotional eater and not active. During my first pregnancy I gain 50 lbs! I never tried to tried to lose that weight. As the years passed and I put the kids needs before my needs I reached 290 lbs! In January of 2008 right before I became pregnant with my last child I was 290 lbs. I can't believe that I was 10 lbs way from 300 lbs.





January 19, 2008 @ 290lbs



Here is my 290 lbs picture. A few people say that I still kind of look the same. My face is just chubbier. I don't just see a chubbier face. I see me wearing a size 22W jeans, a 3x shirt and a major spare tire. Now here I am 33 lbs lighter on my stationary bike.



August 16, 2011 @ 257lbs
My spare tire has been down graded to a muffin top. My jeans are a loose 20W and my shirts are 1x. My favorite work out clothes are starting to loosen up. I am working on my fat girl way of thinking. This blog has helped me over the last six weeks to dig deep and start living healthy, physically and emotionally. (and making me accoutable.)

Cheers to changing Amy!!

Life of a Fat Girl

Usually when I tell someone how much I weigh they say no way. They are either being really nice, they are truly shocked about the number or they don't believe me. My weight has been an issue (mostly in my brain) most of my life.

A few days ago I had a conversation with my husband about my weight loss. He is very proud of me. I told him that I am proud of me too. He said that it must be physically demanding to work out so much. I told him there is nothing physically hard about exercising, it's all mental for me. I have to gear myself up to work out. I have to plan when and how much I am going to work out. I also have to get pass the fat girl way of thinking. Being overweight or obese is something that my husband will never understand. He has always been in his ideal weight range. Heck when he return from Marine Corp boot camp he had 1% body fat. (Grrrr)

I didn't wake up one day thinking like a fat girl. I can remember thinking like a fat girl in middle school. I always worn huge clothing, that way no one would see my figure. I never ever got tease about being fat. In fact, I never really got tensed. By the age of 12, I thought I was gross. No es bueno. This line of thinking was a result of being told that I was so chucky. Yeah, anyone would look fat next to my skinny sister when we were growing up. My parents, especially my grandmother would make me aware of the weight difference between my sister and I. (Come one who really cares when you are 7 or 8) Because of this stigma that I am the fat one, I ate the part.

By the time I reached high school the fat girl way of thinking really set in. Going to Jane Addams help me with that. In JA the girls out numbered the boys 4 to 1. So it was easy for me to blend into the crowd of girls and not be noticed. I was always afraid that I wasn't going to fit in the old school benches we used to have as seats and desk. When I joined the volleyball and softball, the issued bottoms did not fit correctly. I was also afraid that someone would call me fat. It wasn't until I reached the end of my Junior year where I started to crack that way of thinking. My first boyfriend, Floe, helped me realized that I am not this huge image that I had in my brain. So I started to change what a worn just a little. I worn the right sized pants and one size larger shirts. Eventually I worn the right size. This change gained a lot of attention from the boys....honestly I liked it.

After high school my life was a roller coaster ride. I became a complete emotional eater and not active. During my first pregnancy I gain 50 lbs! I never tried to tried to lose that weight. As the years passed and I put the kids needs before my needs I reached 290 lbs! In January of 2008 right before I became pregnant with my last child I was 290 lbs. I can't believe that I was 10 lbs way from 300 lbs.


January 19, 2008 @ 290lbs



Here is my 290 lbs picture. A few people say that I still kind of look the same. My face is just chubbier. I don't just see a chubbier face. I see me wearing a size 22W jeans, a 3x shirt and a major spare tire. Now here I am 33 lbs lighter on my stationary bike.
August 16, 2011 @ 257lbs
My spare tire has been down graded to a muffin top. My jeans are a loose 20W and my shirts are 1x. My favorite work out clothes are starting to loosen up. I am working on my fat girl way of thinking. This blog has helped me over the last six weeks to dig deep and start living healthy, physically and emotionally. (and making me accoutable.)

Cheers to changing Amy!!

Monday, August 15, 2011

Running Across The Street

As a lot of my Facebook friends know, I have a crazy Albanian neighbor that lives on the third floor of my apartment building. She lives with her parents and her brother. I usually post about her dealing on Facebool. She is a laugh riot on Facebook. She takes "vacations" every couple of months. When she returns she is skinnier and more crazy. Her favorite pass time is sitting in front of the building chain smoking. So,I decided to share her latest dealing on this blog.

As I was returning home from my trip to Rite Aid, I reach into my bag to pull out my house keys. I look up and see my crazy Albanian neighbor, let's call her Sue. Sue steps out of the front door of our building and looks at me like a deer in head light. She looks down and jets across the street. In my head I am thinking, "What she is getting herself into now?" I look down at her feet and noticed.....she has no shoes on. I take a better look at her and she is wearing pjs. As she makes it to the other side of the street, her father screams out of the building in Albanian. I have no idea what he was saying. She screams, "NO! Don't hit me!" She runs into the house across the street porch and turns around and looks at me. She starts gentle pushing the door bell as her dad (he has to be 70 years old) runs across the street. I had my keys really to go because she was looking to jet into any where. My husband sees me outside and quickly opens the door to our home. As I was walking in the building Sue's dad is knocking her upside the head old school style. She is screaming "DON'T HIT ME." She runs back into the building steps behind me. She is a bag of crazy.....and now I know her dad is too.

Sorry no pictures of her yet.

Week Six and PointsPlus

I have reached week six....This past week was difficult. It's was birthday week for my son. Candy, cupcakes, ice cream cake and chips EVERYWHERE! It all looked so good and smelled so yummy. I had enough self control that I was able to have a few servings of each.

How Weight Watcher PointsPlus plan is working for me?

Each day I am given 41 points for meals. This includes drinks and snacks. You are also "allowed" 49 extra weekly points. Those who can't gave up the extra sugar in their coffee or snacking those weekly points come in handy. I try not to use those points and save them for party days.

Power foods are my friends.Power foods have low or zero points. They give you the most bang for your buck. My favorite power food is carrots. Processed foods yield more points. The less processing the better. I try to make my breakfast meal yield the most points 11-14 points to get my day started. I usually end up with 13-14 point left for dinner. That means half my plate has to do vegetables or I'll go over my points. 

Be careful with take out foods. Just because it's the healthier choice on the menu doesn't mean it's a good choice. Let's say you want to go to Mickey D's for an afternoon snack. You get a Strawberry Banana Smoothie small (12 floz) and one Snack Wrap. The portion size seems right for a snack. This Mickey D's  "snack" yields you from 11-16 points. This isn't a snack at all ...it's a meal. Holy Cow!!
You also earn activity points for exercising. So walking for 30 minutes at a slow pace earns you 3 activity points. 30 minutes of Wii Fit Yoga earns you 3 points too. The points ratio is determined by your current weight. The goal is to get 4 to 6 points each day. My personal goal is to get at least 4 points a day and 8 points at 3 days a week.

If the extra weekly points is still not enough food for you, you can swap out the earned activity points for foods too. You will learn that if you want that margarita at happy hour you have to earn 9 activity points. That would equal to 75 minutes of moderate effort calisthenics. (is it worth it? ....Maybe or maybe not)

With the few servings of junk food I ate for my son's birthday week I used 27 of my 49 points. Not bad. The birthday week activities and other things thrown in I could not make it to the gym at all. That did not stop me from excerising. I pulled out my stationary bike and my Wii Fit and earned 54 activity points for the week.

Here are the numbers:

Start weight: 268.5 lbs
This week's weight is: 257.7 lbs
Change since last week: -1.6 lbs
Change from start: -10.4 lbs

I am 3 lbs away from my initial goal of 5% of my start weight. I am amazed with my results.The last time I weighed in around this weight was June 1, 2009. I am starting to feel my clothes fit better. The muffin top is looking better.

Let's review last week's goals:

1- Log in at least 60 activity points. Logged only 54 activity points.
2- Allow myself one trip to D&D but no donuts. No D&D...weird.
3- If the kids allow me, get in 8 hours of sleep everyday this week. The kids let me sleep but for some reason I am on autopilot and I wake up at 3 am.
4- Run one block on the way to the gym. Nope
This week's goals:
1- Log in at least 60 activity points.
2- Make time to go to the gym at least 3 times.
3- Start using the WW online community.
4- Allow myself one trip to D&D but no donuts.

Week Six and PointsPlus

I have reached week six....This past week was difficult. It's was birthday week for my son. Candy, cupcakes, ice cream cake and chips EVERYWHERE! It all looked so good and smelled so yummy. I had enough self control that I was able to have a few servings of each.

How Weight Watcher PointsPlus plan is working for me?

Each day I am given 41 points for meals. This includes drinks and snacks. You are also "allowed" 49 extra weekly points. Those who can't gave up the extra sugar in their coffee or snacking those weekly points come in handy. I try not to use those points and save them for party days.

Power foods are my friends.Power foods have low or zero points. They give you the most bang for your buck. My favorite power food is carrots. Processed foods yield more points. The less processing the better. I try to make my breakfast meal yield the most points 11-14 points to get my day started. I usually end up with 13-14 point left for dinner. That means half my plate has to do vegetables or I'll go over my points. 

Be careful with take out foods. Just because it's the healthier choice on the menu doesn't mean it's a good choice. Let's say you want to go to Mickey D's for an afternoon snack. You get a Strawberry Banana Smoothie small (12 floz) and one Snack Wrap. The portion size seems right for a snack. This Mickey D's  "snack" yields you from 11-16 points. This isn't a snack at all ...it's a meal. Holy Cow!!
You also earn activity points for exercising. So walking for 30 minutes at a slow pace earns you 3 activity points. 30 minutes of Wii Fit Yoga earns you 3 points too. The points ratio is determined by your current weight. The goal is to get 4 to 6 points each day. My personal goal is to get at least 4 points a day and 8 points at 3 days a week.

If the extra weekly points is still not enough food for you, you can swap out the earned activity points for foods too. You will learn that if you want that margarita at happy hour you have to earn 9 activity points. That would equal to 75 minutes of moderate effort calisthenics. (is it worth it? ....Maybe or maybe not)

With the few servings of junk food I ate for my son's birthday week I used 27 of my 49 points. Not bad. The birthday week activities and other things thrown in I could not make it to the gym at all. That did not stop me from excerising. I pulled out my stationary bike and my Wii Fit and earned 54 activity points for the week.

Here are the numbers:

Start weight: 268.5 lbs
This week's weight is: 257.7 lbs
Change since last week: -1.6 lbs
Change from start: -10.4 lbs

I am 3 lbs away from my initial goal of 5% of my start weight. I am amazed with my results.The last time I weighed in around this weight was June 1, 2009. I am starting to feel my clothes fit better. The muffin top is looking better.

Let's review last week's goals:

1- Log in at least 60 activity points. Logged only 54 activity points.
2- Allow myself one trip to D&D but no donuts. No D&D...weird.
3- If the kids allow me, get in 8 hours of sleep everyday this week. The kids let me sleep but for some reason I am on autopilot and I wake up at 3 am.
4- Run one block on the way to the gym. Nope
 
This week's goals:
1- Log in at least 60 activity points.
2- Make time to go to the gym at least 3 times.
3- Start using the WW online community.
4- Allow myself one trip to D&D but no donuts.

Friday, August 12, 2011

Insanity & Temptation Plan

This week has been so busy I haven't been able to make it to the gym. That doesn't mean that I haven't been earning my activity points. I started the Insanity Workouts. These are very high impact cardio workouts. You sweat like crazy. The down side of this workout is the high impact. It has upset my bad knee....not good. I push as far as I can go and don't over do it. I don't need a trip to the hospital.

I am continuing to read and read Dr. Ian Smith's book and here are some worksheets that I want to share with you all.




Red-faced during Insanity
Creating My Temptation Plan
List the foods that I consider tempting. Next to it identify what triggers that craving for these food and create a plan to change that behavior.

Tempting Foods: TF
Triggers: T
Alternative Behaviors: AB

TF: Pizza with Extra Cheese              
T: Too tired after work to cook dinner so I order my favorite take out
AB: Rotate the menu so I don't end up eating greasy pizza once a week, If I did happen to get tired.

TF: Large Iced Latte from D&D
T: Tired in the mornings from a long night with the kids. I need a boost of energy to start my day.
AB: Order a Large Iced Coffee Skim Milk one sugar. 1/12 of the calories same caffeine.

TF: Donuts
T: My sweet tooth kicks in or stressed out.
AB: Replace with a 100-calorie snack for sweet tooth and exercise bike during times of stress.

TF: Ice Cream
T: Depressed
AB: Exercise or create a blog post about something positive

Insanity & Temptation Plan

This week has been so busy I haven't been able to make it to the gym. That doesn't mean that I haven't been earning my activity points. I started the Insanity Workouts. These are very high impact cardio workouts. You sweat like crazy. The down side of this workout is the high impact. It has upset my bad knee....not good. I push as far as I can go and don't over do it. I don't need a trip to the hospital.

I am continuing to read and read Dr. Ian Smith's book and here are some worksheets that I want to share with you all.

Red-faced during Insanity
Creating My Temptation Plan
List the foods that I consider tempting. Next to it identify what triggers that craving for these food and create a plan to change that behavior.

Tempting Foods: TF
Triggers: T
Alternative Behaviors: AB

TF: Pizza with Extra Cheese               
T: Too tired after work to cook dinner so I order my favorite take out
AB: Rotate the menu so I don't end up eating greasy pizza once a week, If I did happen to get tired.

TF: Large Iced Latte from D&D
T: Tired in the mornings from a long night with the kids. I need a boost of energy to start my day.
AB: Order a Large Iced Coffee Skim Milk one sugar. 1/12 of the calories same caffeine.

TF: Donuts
T: My sweet tooth kicks in or stressed out.
AB: Replace with a 100-calorie snack for sweet tooth and exercise bike during times of stress.

TF: Ice Cream
T: Depressed
AB: Exercise or create a blog post about something positive

The Last Day of CPSE for Big Al.

It's official! Big Al is no longer a student of CPSE.
He is a student with a speech impairment of CSE.
He had his last bus ride today.
Now he will walk to his Kindergarten class in a big building that looks like a castle.
He will no longer be the tallest student at his school. He'll be one of the short ones.
There will no longer be four staff members in his class.
There will only be one.
November, 2008

Three years ago he started his journey with Easter Seals when I him put on the school bus all alone. He was only two years and a few months old. Today I put my five year old big boy on the bus with his little sister. It was more like he put himself on the bus. He had no clue that his journey at Easter Seals ended. I returned home and sat down. I looked up and saw his graduation picture....and cried.


August, 2011
When he got off the bus in the afternoon he said, "I go back to school later." "No sweetie you are going to a new school." "No mommy. My school." "We can always visit." "Ok Mommy."

When he got off the bus the Matron was holding his book bag. His back book was huge! Filled with arts & crafts, summer &winter clothes, asthma meds and snacks. The stuff in his bag seemed endless. I reached the bottom and found his communications notebook. My eyes started to water. It's a written history of a few conversation I had with his teacher. My favorite conversation was about his "Your Baby Can Read." index card he took to school one day for show and tell. She was amazed that he was able to identify so many words, that she didn't teach him. Most of my conversation with his teacher were via telephone. No matter what I was doing I always made time for Helen. I still remember our first formal sit down. She reached over the table touched my hand and said, "You're an amazing mother."  She is an amazing educator. She is very firm, fare and fun. She knows her stuff. She always gave me the heads up on what was going to happen next in the "game."

Now.....CSE is next in the "game" in the castle school.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Our Day @ The Pool

Finally, the day came where the Big and Little Al were able to get their turns at swimming lessons. For the last six weeks BIG Bea has enjoyed her free (my favorite word) NYC Parks' Department swimming lessons. Now for the next three weeks we all get to enjoy the free-ness. (YAY!) The only down side was Big and Little had to miss a day of summer school or else we would lose their spots in the class. There was no way that was going to happen. So I had to make the executive discussion of "no pick up" this morning. The bus driver was a little happy when I told him. I think its because we are his first pick up and does not have to be at our home at 7am.

Now our routine was thrown on its head and the world was up-side-down in the world of the Als.

The first question, "Where's we goin'?" Of course from Big Al.

"We are going to the pool."

"We're having a pool party?"

"Yeah, you can call it that."

Little Al just walked around humming, so if she was asking "where are we going" too.

Ok! Bathing suits on! Sandals on! Towels check! Stroller check! (Because there was no way Little Al was walking to the pool and back...she needs a few more years of PT for that.) Ok! We are out the door!

The entire walk there Big Al kept asking Big Bea, "Where we going?" and "Are we there yet?" As soon as Big Bea gave him an answer he quickly told me.

We arrived to Mapes Pool.

Becky's class was first. During her class we enjoyed free (there goes that word again) "school" breakfast in the courtyard. They were very confused.

"Why are we eating breakfast here, Mommy? I sit next to Jefty at school for breakfast."

"We can't eat next to the pool and Jefty isn't here. He is at school."

Little Al's confusion melted away when I pulled out a bowl of Cheerios. Despite all the questions, I enjoyed eating out in the sun with them, I usually enjoy this with just Becky. Today was one of those get out and do something summer days. It was great (for me) to change the routine. Once we were done we walked over to the pool area to wait for our turn. They didn't understand why we had to wait. So the line of questioning continued.

Finally, the instructor (who has to be still in high school) told us to jump in. Unfortunately, I could only have one of the Als in the pool with me. The instructor said that some parents switch kids every 15 minutes. I told him that is not going to work out for me. He laughed. Big Al did not have a problem sitting  on the side lines with Becky. He actually preferred it. Switching would not be a good idea because Little Al stimming would cause her to walk right into the pool and that would not be fare to Becky. Big Al is passed physical stimming, he is all verbal baby. (He drives me batty sometimes.)

So it was me and Little Al. As soon as the water touched her legs she was humming and sticking out her leg with joy. The instructor smiled and said "She loves that water, huh?" "You have no idea." We first had to show our kids how to do bubbles. (Submerge your head in the water and push air out of your nose.) She laughed so hard when I got out of the water. Don't laugh too hard, you are next. Oh boy she did not like that but she recovered quickly because the water pleased her sensory. She didn't cry or whine or complain for the entire instructional hour. It was just amazing. The water pushed up against her body in the right way. I love this Little Al, nothing was bugging her. She was focused. Once we were done we were cold. Little Al took her towel, sat in her stroller and was quiet. She was readjusting to life out of the water.

Another great thing about the instructional time, it ends 10 minutes before the pool opens to the public. We went right onto the line to get back in. YAY! My sister and 2 out of 3 of her kids joined us for the free play. EVERYONE BACK IN THE POOL. It was a lot of fun playing around. At one point I turned to my sister and said, "Our mom never did fun stuff like this with us when we were this age." She agreed.

After another hour in the pool it was time to get out and get free (Tee-hee) lunch for the kiddies. Then off to ABA for Little Al.

Little Al was exhausted by our adventure....Awesome.

What a great day.

Monday, August 8, 2011

Week Five

I really can't believe that I have made it to this week. I usually give up on a healthier lifestyle change after a few weeks when I do it on my own. When I do it in a group, I do it half a$$ (exercise and no change in diet.)

I have been successfully logging in my foods correctly to Weight Watchers. I have also noticed that I don't really use my weekly points. Last week I only used 7 out of the 49 weekly points. That's great. I am starting to not to like that full belly feeling. I feel kind of sick. I am starting to know when to stop to be satisfied. This is a great success. Before the summer began, I loved me a full belly and a nap on the sofa.




My Wii Fit Family.
Last week I logged in 53 points for activity that equals to 7.5 hours of activity. For week 4, I logged in 72 points for 12 hours. Week 4 was the week I had the most weight loss, so far.

This week's weight is: 259.5 lbs
Change since last week: -1.6 lbs
Change from start: -8.6 lbs
I have lost some inches all around....I'll start sharing the measurements soon. Maybe next week.

I am 4.8 lbs away from my initial goal of 5% of my start weight. AWESOME!

Let's review last week's goals:
1-Run a portion of the way to the gym three times this week. At least 4 minutes each day of the three days. Did not happen!!
2-Increase my dairy intake. I noticed with my tracking I do not drink enough milk.
I increased my intake a little.
3-Again do NOT go into a D&D. I went twice last week and control my inner donut voice.
I gave in a went on Friday. I didn't get a donut like I wanted.
Ok so here are the short terms goals for this week:
1- Log in at least 60 activity points.
2- Allow myself one trip to D&D but no donuts.
3- If the kids allow me, get in 8 hours of sleep everyday this week.
4- Run one block on the way to the gym.